~qy~

2009-12-24T02:01:00.002+08:00

It's 2am. I'm blogging here suddenly from no where.... nth to do oso... so do some updating for myself....

Yes! IIP started since oct 19, was bad for the 1st few weeks but as it goes on, things got better even wif the 6 of us. no more mi standing in the middle.. and caromes are getting close to us too not just fara. although he still veri close til ppl are asking us if something is going on btw them. wahahah impossible man! now is like 1 month and a few weeks to end my IIP. tt so fast= gradutaing soon enough too. IIP- really test urself and oso ur bonding wif ur frens realising who and how are they...
it can bring the grp tgt closer but oso can led the grp worst den it is. never ever let myself in the the bad situation. Again for sure new frens are made, and realising eh actually my this fren oso in the company as freelance.... hahha

My life - as u can imaging, away for camp = away from family and frens and sistas... no chioce.
it's so fast more than half a year tt he left... still miss him @ him but i'm fine. just sometime when do certain thing will remind mi of him. the empty room left behind.

xmas is coming soon, went shopping wif lin again so fst 1 yr alr. looking for presents for them are so dam hard... wad a theme we gave ourselves but is so fun after all... window shopping is oso quite a fun thing to do....

T.CO - don think tt ppl who wear so casual in wont buy anything out from it. sentence for the nite.

bk todae

2009-10-03T15:11:00.002+08:00

so wads up wif my life? not blogging any more?

nope jus don feel like blogging at times...

todae now @ chalet so veri free and it's raining so nth much to be done or can be done... so blog lor wahaha..

having holidae for quite long, not going to mout k wif sch (cant affort it) and frenz were bk to s'pore for the trip too. what else can i get myself to be busy wif none other than npcc.. yea jus went to officer nite 09 wif Mr peh, tgt wif wc, alan, nadz. met andy and melvin oso ray... haha again is a nite for us to discuss abt 2010 wad for the unit to complete.. and oso discuss abt annual camp... hahah maybe this annual camp will be a camp that i planning wif wc... yes i graduating soon next yr april.... times fly pass fast.... 3yrs... wif many happened out of our expectation.. not much have change in the unit jus the ppl that working wif changes... time to let go of np in my life. So take care my CIs gang.

My Fair Lady... watcin this drama now...

2009-08-11T11:27:00.000+08:00

Bk... todae got mood to blog...

freaking tired of myself.. i seriously donoe wad m i doing for the whole lesson todae!!
my eyes jus feel like closing and have a long rest. but yet i have slp more than enough ytd!!!! todae team was wif sabrina gytt and one more guy forgot his name.. psps
den chatting randomly to my few frens.. nv go down for break todae close mus save $$.. $140... i spent over my budget of the month. wadever i earn is not even this amt yet lor.

keep telling myself to run in the morning but den it nv turn out to the way i want... freaking sian lor.... fyp finally ending soon last 100m and 24more hours to go. tml will be my fyp presentation le... scared and worried abt it.. although assessors are ai chin & leng er.. not worry coz of them but mysefl of not presenting well.. my only chance and last to present well... the questioning and answering part is the most dangerous.. and i'm the 3rd person man. my mind is all abt presentation and the dress code for tml man.....

mood is so bad this few daes.. getting better at 1st.. donoe why getting bad... so called or can be say tt i fought wif my fren of sis over working matters.. i'm not sure if i'm rite or i'm wrong... seriously... she got no choice so she come to us to help her. helped den wad. yes we get the pay so wad... tt's no the point... i donoe why i becoming so frustrate over this when it happened.. choosing between to work or no to work.. i don work she cannot go out den she got to work. den i sacrific my days wif my family too if i work..
she don wan to wei nan us we oso don wan wei nan u. for a MOMENT i felt so unfair or wadever tt making her problem our problem... anyway it's over.. wad to do - fren come 1st before anything.

now to be family will come be4 anything....

fren in sch oso the same.. shallnt comment or wadever.....

2009-07-09T13:19:00.003+08:00

Yes AYG over!!!

Happy and also not happy for it.

Why because lesson is back to normal life! I missed the AYG TOs family and the group of swimmer that swam in all the events... No matter where I stood, it's a great view to catch the swimmers and watch them. From reporting, Take your mark, Jump off, and turning back, lastly the touch of the OMEGA. It's all so wonderful... Not forgetting seeing the Singapore Flag flying high up in the air... The 1st and 2nd position...

It's so hard to be a TO, you wouldn't be able to cheer, clap or any others thing even if the country came in 1st place.

Swimming is such a wonderful sport....

These are the pictures that I took during the events haha... for more go FB.. took a courage to went up to this korean swimmer for a photo wif hiim... wahaha.. started to regret not taking his fb... hiaz!!!

2009-06-05T15:16:00.002+08:00

phone line kena cut off le.. if u msg mi sorry i won be able to either reply u thru msg or give you a call.

Life is spo stress full nowadays. No $$ nvm not a big problem to me used to it alr.. but y school n NP are still so mess up to mi. Family? Grandma going for her eye surgery again on the 10th June. Not that worry for this time round coz alr noe the doctor and seen him for long time so kind of relax abit and althought is not a major surgery. Jus nice SNSC is coming soon next week which mean I'm struck in sport school again for one week. Together wif the CE friends again hahah wonderfullll.... I can see something coming in~!!!

Np - sec 3 took over alr but it's again a process of mi to go thru. they still not familiar wif much thing and well I will only have the small no of ppl attending well i don care or bother now for it. Alot of comments is coming in abt them to mi. How am I going to change them guide them so that they cn meet up to the standard we want?

School- Understanding test is here again.. The 1st week after holidays, I will have all my paper and is all on the same well = to 5daes sch 5 day i'm going home at 5pm.... die liao lor... Report mus faster rush out but seems like nothing is start at this rate... ?? Who can be there to rush mi and also accompany mi at the same time being with mi? I might be strong outside playing around wif frens but deep in my heart????? It's not going to recover as soon as possible......

2009-05-29T23:29:00.003+08:00

Crying on bus.. don ask mi why...

and it's bk again.. really i don like to be alone... don ignore mi please...

2009-05-24T22:48:00.003+08:00

Aron, Li Yan, Lin and the gang...

Thanks for everything. I'm back here. Sorry for not contacting anyone of you recently, just that I felt sick till now not yet recover. No worries okay, I'm back to school too. Can you imaging my 1st day of school, I'm sick still went do high element. Although it's just walking through a log and come back using continuous self belay. To mi, it's a good start even though I coughed the whole day.

Now i'm sneezing the whole day. so i won contact buddy u so early alrite. hope to see u and the gang soon man...

he's gone but nvm. I understand and will stay even stronger coz I'm Qiao Yi. His youngest daughter Neo Qiao Yi.

Sisters and Brothers, I'M BK REAL SOON!!!

thank hui for the lovely email, you sent. It brighten up my new life, coz everything cant be changed as what you have stated there, so let's never end it can... so next time i can send you back a even longer email wif our life. Maybe a book. wahaha

Thank Leen and gordon for the accompany, drinking and helping. Spending the toughest day wif me (mondae) although in the future there were lots of unhappiness but it's all the past. So there's nth to say or wadever. really so let's have a great future man.....

Money problem again

2009-05-07T09:31:00.002+08:00

This month is freaking hard for mi.. I need lots of lots of $$$$$

Shoes, School fees. Computer, Phone, Transport... Everything concern about $$$. and i'm earning sucks... now onwards must work harder everyday help si e to call.. call.. call..

2009-05-03T18:13:00.002+08:00

I love my mum......
I got wad i want from her....
thank you...

happy mother dae...

2009-05-01T00:09:00.001+08:00

Waaa ur $1500 is such a fking big sum... as compare to mine...
WA every mthn $350 to mum... fkin wei da... don ever borrow $$ from mi.. I swear I will nv lend it to u.. so what u are my sister.

2009-04-27T15:22:00.003+08:00

YO FRENZ... for how long i haben been here updating... well sch started 1 week ago.. todae is the start of 2nd week, all the best to mi okay.. So frens outside, i'm not as free as the past now( but still if u need mi to be out u can give a call to book mi )

I remembered clearly in one of my past blog i written down that i don like making decision in my life however, past few month i have been making decision here and there.. be it hmmm.. and future life of mine the career that I going for.. Police? outdoor educator? property agent?
People are going for earning more $$. how abt mi?? certain thing happen that really changes all my thinking abt my life.. thanks to hong, 4th aunt, SD and not for getting Republic Polytechnic (MY SCH)...

Everydae in RP is an inspiring day for mi.. lesson of wad i'm going thru really need mi realise lots of thing in life.. jus an example- leadership skill during AE during land, water based lesson and even now sport management.. every where u go, ppl are toking abt leadership...

management style... - can be apply in life too go have a look at it... task , relationship... leader can go have a look at it...

2009-03-30T14:12:00.003+08:00

2009-03-29T15:06:00.002+08:00

well went out wif the hk trip 08 darlinz... wahaha now all my darlinz... hahaha

went watch moive 2 cine and i was late when we suppose to meet them at 2pm due to my aunt so busy no time to cut my hair and delay... after tt went mind cafe 1st time there enviroment okok only leh... game got alot but the lady there donoe how to play and den we got to read ourselves... lots of fun thing tt we did there.. all the sabo thingy tt we thot of.. hahah fotos most importantly... well sry fren coz cam now is bk wif my sis so needa wait for mi to upload den send to all... wahahah

the little honda suffered abit ytd havin so many ppl inside there where ppl will jus look at us and shake their head... wahaha and 1st time honda cannot speed..

den got sad on the way when sending darlinz home... hiaz but it got better after toking to someone else... reached home veri early den wanna on but stupid com keep disconnect and cant even log in to msn.. hate the new msn i cant get used to it.... jus shut it off and watch my korea drama til 3am... wahah

thinking of....

my $15

2009-03-28T02:27:00.003+08:00

late blog for todae... jus reached home and done wif setting up wireless for my notebook.. wahah

well for todae rushed to school as i was late for configuring my lappy in order to use it for FYP but wahaha i overslept.. due to some1 msging mi at 2am middle of the nite... (it doesnt wake mi up-slient mode)

dangerous morning i had.. over stop when i supposed to alight at AMK mrt station bus stop.. den jaywalking almost knock down by a vehicle... AWAKE after it happened.

place com, found a nice chinese story book.. wahaha den meet kahlid den rushing to office.. thing do happened when sudden change was made..telling uncle to u turn bk and drop off?? kind of not veri good.. both of them were askin mi to take home.. piangz (no matter how tired i'm i have nv wan to take cab home from sch) for a moment no wherelse i thot of going coz it jus a waste of.... for nth i took a expensive cab.. (main reason why i wanna blog was due to this incident) i'm not blaming any1 but jus felt like.. my $$ there is goes.. wad i thot came true..

went out wif buddy, jia kai, jai, bran, adrian, kevin and new fren matthew.. from ps- marina...

later meeting HK trip 08 frenz and darlinz and i'm still awake when it's like going 4am!!

thinking of....
jus cant let myself cool down frm tt matter... my $$$$$

2009-03-26T01:16:00.002+08:00

To my Dearest Darliz Is...

9th Nov okay.. mus remember ar if not 15 aug will not be in my list okay!!
meeting meetin we are meeting soon!!!
cheer up ok.. always look on the positive side...

This post specially for you too..

there is always up and down so do try to look and think positivly..
if u are up there alr, den is even harder to maintain it up there.. look as for now at least u got something to aim and improve on... if u are up there u can only maintain it.. if u failed to do so it's even more sad... there is still time for u.. maybe at this stage is still not at ur pit.. so don rush okay... believe in urself, i'm sure u got a good coach, u got ur training, and u got ur fren tgt wif u...
most importantly.. it will be more colourful and meaningful if u have the ups and downs in ur life... so don let it bring urself down... u CAN do it... YES MAN!!!

GOGOGOGO!! JIA YOU!! hope to see ur new timing out asap....

qiaoz

2009-03-25T01:00:00.002+08:00

sry my new blog abit messy haha gonna sort out when i'm free or when i free to do so.. wahah so mean while bear wif it 1st la hahah...

todae nth much was slping half of the dae. den played PS again den slack came over to grandma hse for her surgery later on. den now abt to slp too... going rnd to read ppls blog...

why is there ppl still not bonded after so long? it can seem not to bother u but it's such am important thing to other tt u will have to be stand as one tgt as one... i shall jus say it's wasted.. or maybe u are bonded in a way tt no 1 will realised and see it. which is in a way that no1 will wan to care abt it and let u off asap...

confused in 2 things... one is wad i mentioned just and another is wad i'm feeling now.. shall jus be fren coz i noe i don noe him well enough yet..

2009-03-23T15:59:00.003+08:00

YES I'm BK HERE!!!!

sorry for not updating...
got lots of camps going on la... haha

well YES NIGEL CHUA!!! I MISSED U TOO!! alrite will get lin to organise but need them to come oso... if they nv come oso sian... mus have all come tgt mah... hahah

my Dear!!! GER yes we can meet up anytime u wan lor... jus give mi a call... hahah so long nv meet up le....

while finally i ended my busy schedule here and there.. alots of things going on during the camp....
at 1st still thot of not going but den i still went coz it's my sec 3 camp the one tt i planned...
even be4 i reached the camp my voice is alr there, scolding the sec 4s not to mess up the camp.. wahah.. reached camp, TOs kind of fighting in front of all CIs abt my sec3s attendance. haiz all 3 of us got the different no of cadets in the camp. best part command post did not update the no of sec 3s but only sec 1s and CIs... wth rite... hiaz... tt moments was so tired for mi after half a week not have more than 3 hrs of sleep...

den late late late lecture cut short cut short...... til time is again the same as program...
den whole camp is all abt lecture, lecture and LECTURE.. sec3 don even have a proper camp closing... be4 they left hq oso kena scolded by mi... late late late... but den thanks to my HO and senior, i got many thots bk from there..

den one day in ACSI... again many tots of it came abt too..
19/03 should be at the sch early morning but KO haha so woke up at 10am.. called lin den funny thing happened. the 1 who pick up my call is not lin but darling.. wahaha so something he dont noe became something tt is..... wahahah

den is time for 20-22 wahaha another camp wif lin in her school wahaha. so tired man all the way laughing and laughin when is high tides.. when low tides, we were lik okok nvmnvm can can we can do it.. wahaha.. while she and him were busy, i went arnd making new frens hahah so next time will have to look arnd if they were still in sch bo hahah... again lesson learnt... hahaha so many thing happened in jus this 1 week.. pissed off with camp... rushing for time.. running here and ther.... and finally I can get my new phone soon enough... LG is waiting for mi...

2009-03-07T17:05:00.004+08:00

Chai Chee !

I met Aron and Nigel both... but only got a chance to speak to Nigel. Was late for reporting time due to the stupid taxi uncle don noe the way... den saw nigel at canteen waiting for mi haha oso cannot chat much coz need go for briefing so fast fast took a photo den he go off for his lesson andi join the rest wahahah..

next start of the camp got a class 3N3.. haha hard to handle sia at 1st but as we go on, i got managed it here and there.. godness thanks to tt my class got a gal tt can help mi lots by shouting at them... hahah the gang is always tgt and i got them thru out the camp whenever they are suppose to divide out. hhaha they are the wonderful class.

it's another kind of experience i got. different people a different way of handling.. different from IJ. While maybe should compare them if IJ. coz they are of total different kind.

again pic tt tells all.....

2009-02-26T22:53:00.004+08:00

To e IJ class that I took for IJ camp 09..

I promised u gals to update rite so wad i gona upload all the photos tt i have..

Well gals tt not tt close. after going thru the camp got much better... even take cover for one another whn there's phone rang during lesson time... wahahahhah best ar~!!!!

it's just so fast tt it's 1 week after camp.. does tt meaning tt the frenship tt builds up during the 3 daes 2 nite gonna be pronoun dead?? wahaha I'm not too such yea! hahah but really hope u gals will nv forget wad happened during the camp regardless of the good or bad things..

IJ camp

2009-02-23T15:34:00.002+08:00

yes here to update my life..

CHIJ TP 3 daes 2 nites adventure camp.

while got to eat some food coz i forced myself to eat.. thanks to ken who brought laughter....
and oso this camp sista wasnt there.. wonder if she found her things bo.. however leen was there haha... so at least still got someone there i really close wif there other than nemo, dear...
met some new fren(instructors) of course the gals tt i took. this year i got a wonderful class 3/9..

a different batch of gals not the same as the past few yrs... this class was rather closer to mi and really showed lots of caring abt one another. getting everyone closer, motivated themselves.. even if khairil and i were angry, they came to us and said sorry. So sweet... coz we don expect they will apologised to us...

a different roles for mi this yr. a step up den the past yr.. doing briefting for darts and i cook. haha kind of fun haha but worried too. in the end icook oso delay coz the wind there too strong...

shines- 1st time helping out wif the belaying wif the students hahah... after so long haben been touching belay ropes.. dynamic or static haha... belay commands..

db- nv join them haha was at shore.. nv bring dry attire.. no extra shoe... actually shld be able to join but nv borrow booties from nemo..

campfire- clas was the furthest from MC so abit not high but managed abit to bring them high at the middle part. cnt hear tt clearly from the place i sit.

TRC- class got stronger for the last part...

a class of 35- teacher mdm Goh.... will nv forget them coz their are the gals tt i seen so far tt they are tired yet they don wan sleep. wana tok to khai and mi haha

replied tag

2009-02-22T11:17:00.002+08:00

be4 i blog abt past 3 daes shall replied all the tag

qy- zoe: haha ok liao better haha recovering in process
qy- liyan: will will will ahah u take care too okay hahah !! got time we meet up again!
qy-ben: hello!!! hahaha doing well?
qy- aron: hao hao wor heng hao!
qy- kevin: yea get lin to fetch mi 1st hahaha
qy-km: mus wait for mondae den i wil noe

alrite I going bk to slp den later blog abt the 3 daes 2 nites IJ camp....

2009-02-15T23:11:00.002+08:00

It's hard to accept the fact in life.. but it's easy to compromise with a best solution tt u can think of and it's the best for urself..

Scrolling down my phone contact, but i see no one... wanna tell hui but she busy wif her project so don think is the best way to contact her. Eve, she got her stuff to worry abt so not the rite person.... another to be strong.... if i getting stronger den wad will happen...

Keep thinkin abt camp thingy i don wan let dear to make much changes so i keep thinkn how how how... I'm just so helpless for camp.. and i don wan............................

speechless..

should i call hui todae?? or meet her tml?

14th Feb

2009-02-15T16:19:00.002+08:00

14th Feb- Valentine's Day
A day when you and ur lover will spend together with.
Yes I spent my dae with people who I love. How abt u??

13th spent time wif darling ray, sadiy, Nemo and ken.. haha got to noe lots of stuff from them again. My Fren who i noe are oso their fren.. den best stil for so long i thot i thot it's always a joke/fake thingy, but actually it's a fact and is a real fact. den aslam tgt wif lin.. it's such a small world. or rather s'pore is small hahah

14th feb- met some single s out and played bb- got injured.. thanks to those who are there wif mi.. So great to have u wif mi... don worry for mi. i'm fine.. so shallnt tok abt it anymore....
nite met kevin, jia kai, brandon and issac. hahah 1st time out wif them haha

to lin - see they can mixed tgt wif us... and we can mixed well wif them too.. hahah lots of fun wif tem!!! ahahah

sometimes, people have to be brave in front of everyone no matter how worry u are, just remain calm. Coz if u seems to worry so much, others wil be more worried than u. Just smile! coz a smile from someone can really cure most of the pain.... was looking for it on their faces yes finally I found it after a long while... thanks thanks...

2009-02-07T00:55:00.003+08:00

CIs- who can tell mi how life would be without NP???
Cadets- who can tell mi wad u guys are thinking...
CLs- who can tell mi why u guys behave this way???
Who can tell mi why is there stupid R&R and limitation that blocks us from doing thingys that we want to?
Who can tell mi why people will always want to put everything tgt at 1 go.. thinking tt it can be completed jus for the sake of attendence...
who can tell mi how the got the award??
who can tell mi why peeps react differently???

I'm freaking bother over this... although i say nvm...

2009-02-07T00:10:00.003+08:00

in short- 1st time try driving hahah where ?? Kallang.. hahah
was shocked when being ask to change place... hahha well i don think i doing well for that hahah...
was a veri long time being tgt wif buddy again... hahah

things happen.. well forget abt it.. so wad if i really care abt wad they think abt mi.. nth i can do..
but the least i can do for myself is not to regret tt i spent 2yrs there... this is wad they think of me.. den ok i shallnt say anything alr... will not see mi "chap" wad u will be doing... thanks to the daes i spent tgt wif u .. wadever i did is all my best................. i shall redrawn my vote see who is the.......

Hope the following peepz are better...

Tml will be a better dae!!!!

2009-02-05T02:23:00.002+08:00

bk to blog...... no mood to blog for past few daes.. will update tml...

to:
-ben: so long nv chat wif u alr sia miss u so much...
-lin: tya for tt nite over at kallang... so when's my 2nd lesson??
-kevin: haha psps seriously forget whether did i reply u so replied thru lin's blog.. and oso jus linked u in my blog donoe where to place u at, so i jus place it under fren for the moment(don mind rite hahah)

updated jus for the 3 ACSI peepz hahaha tml will den be more for the rest....

Updates...

2009-01-26T23:48:00.002+08:00

Happy New Year to all my frens.. Hope u got all ur ang paos and collected quite a sum of ya shui qian.. haha althoug economy now is veri bad, perhaps ppl will still give the normal sum and nv get lower..

updates...

yes tt's the end of everything... well I think we shall jus remain as bro-sis relationship, nothing more than that.. wo zi nen shou za meng you yuan wu fen!

quite emo for some daes coz too many thing happened.. i was so stupid to try thing out among my clique of fren.. how much they understand mi... well i got my answers.. shallnt write it down over here. Guess wad I'm fine bk alr.

fridae last dae of sch.. went kayak expedition so cool man.. how i ended my sem 2 of yr 2 haha.. lots lots of fun and get sunburn this time rnd coz 17th nv burn so now my skin couldnt take it so it jus goes.... not forgeting the clan's photo taking session. this time rnd fee is not wif us...

2009-01-24T16:26:00.004+08:00

No more morning greeting when i walk to busstop everydae for school..

the most respectful granduncle...

wad left wif us is just...

just 2 more daes... it's just...

2009-01-22T12:12:00.003+08:00

Yea I change my skin in sch... hahah freaking cool man... although not in the mood did something to make myself feel much better ahahaa ... abit different from my style this time.. hahah not so emo alr haha hope everything will be fine and i hope to get bk my landyark.....HK POLICE!!! errrrggggg...

Now there is some1 in sch lib playing piano... so well... and he/she is playing the song in meteor garden tt song... and got one is my favourite but i donnoe the title of the song.. hahah

2009-01-22T11:24:00.002+08:00

Picz again.... 17th jan....

2009-01-22T10:48:00.003+08:00

GOD DAMN IT... I LOST MY EZ-LINK CARD.. HOW ON EARTH M'I GOING TO TRAVEL TO SCHOOL FOR MY LAST DAY OF SCHOOL...

how on earth m i going to shop for my last min CNY shopping... howhowhowhowhowhow....

aiya complicated for the time now... tired not enough sleep after tokin to hui aka sis til 3am in msn this morning... so much to update her abt mi my life and she wif her life....

it's just a card tt spoilt my mood for all....

2009-01-21T23:24:00.002+08:00

Time: 1124pm.

3 parts for todae - went office to help pack the tentage but only awhile not veri long quite fun ar.. match here and there maybe this is my 1st time helping out. Got to noe abt something(donoe whether it's good or bad?)

met lin again as normal.
shld get new year shoe for myself but too bad all not nice de, in the end help lao pa to buy his clothings.. I manage to change his style alitle here and there.. reached home at 1045 early sia..

3rd part of the day is not tt good.. something happen...emo? not sure!

Flame is gone...
what can I say? will there be ppl who really understand mi?

there are lots of things tt i wish to say it out and blog, while i jus cant do that. but who can i really share wif?? even in blog now is jus so dangerous.. cannot even write our feeling out coz u might not noe the very next moment someone might jus give u some stupid trouble wif ur blog....

M'i still in my lonely world???

2009-01-21T01:56:00.004+08:00

A picture tells a thousand words...

wad's up on the dinner??

So yea I got a pic wif dear again jus now... hahah great time tgt.. meeting time 330pm.. eugene was the earliest as normal. den next donoe (dear or lao pa) den mi reached at 345pm waited for lin til 4 as she went see doctor for her flu.. den did somework at burger king exploring dear and eugene pencil case. wad a big different. den help lin to mark her things haha... and we have dinner at 5plus til 845 den we left.. Eugene can eat alot...

den adding more pic on sat celebrations.. still haven get all the pic yet so jus gonna post a few tml now canot upload..

2009-01-20T09:45:00.002+08:00

No Mood todae and I'm late for school reached arnd 845am.. class will still be the same old kind 2 teams only peeps will jus come around 9am... Freaking sian in sch... neither my team nor jaz team I will wan to team wif. Therefore I'm here blogging at this time so early.. It's always leisure module that I will have all this stupid thingy...wad to do, i choosen this as my elective..and todae is the last dae for this module..

I dono if this mood will affect tonite anot man.. Coz i'm sure there will be lots of things to share and the gangz will laugh all the way while eating..

how how how shld i leave the class early? or shld i jus stay up til lesson is over??

I miss my BF so much really can't wait to see him...

2009-01-19T11:19:00.002+08:00

Maybe you have heard the story before but still this is a very good story to share wif u.. when u are helpless just think of this perhaps it may help u much in a way..

The Starfish story...

There was a man walking along the beach himself and he saw a figure a little far away. And it looks it was like dancing over there so the man decided to walk towards there. What he saw was a guy throwing something into the sea as he gets nearer. He went up looking curious asking what the guy throwing, realised it's the starfish and why is he doing that when there are so many around. There is no point doing it, eventually the big waves will wash them back to shore. The Guy pick up 1 again and throw it back into the sea.
The Guy replied "It doesn't make much different to all but at least I made a different for this."

U can't make changes for all but at least now wad u can do is to make a diferent for 1.

Candle..

2009-01-19T09:13:00.005+08:00

last lesson for Environmental Education. what we goona do. Simple- finish everything in 2nd meeting (solve the PS) after tt 3rd meeting solve Pam's pro within 15 mins. believe will end class early but no point got UT at 415-445 den it marks the date for Monday..

Still thinking whether to go shop for CNY shoes at TP anot or jus go RI to buy tt ex shoes.
Which mean this week is a very slacking week for us.. COZ last dae of sch.....

People who are schooling don envy on us peepz who gonna have holiday.. LOOK u have ur 2 month holidae during Nov til Dec... Now is our turn..

"Everyone is a star. It's all up to u urself whether wad kind of star are u. Are u the shine one? or are u a star tt never shines." Pam gave us a star shape candle and said that.
I'm like what she said "in this sem, there are peepz who are lighted up, shine however it die off after not long." Yea tt mi in the class.. 1st few lesson I was lighted up but the flame was blown off after a few weeks later. However I will light up my candle again in somewhere of nowhere in my life. No one can light up my candle. it's only mi myself can do that..

there is another candle in my world of life.. who will light it up to brighten my daes???

Song for todae: How do I live without you.

2009-01-18T17:54:00.004+08:00

Some pictures after meeting up wif the hkt peepz.. ahah another Fun dae wif them over at Sentosa.. more picz in my com and hd...

a dae over at sentosa marks the end of going all round S'pore looking for boxes, presents... this is the 1st time ever in my life tt I actually went round so many places jus for my broz. I think even Cheng, bin, wei, gor this 4 Broz oso don have man.. and i have nv buy a so expensive thingy out from tt shop... hahaha..

the gangz are making fun of mi and eugene.. haha yea from ur best fren to ur bf.. all thank to.... hahah well but tt was fun.. dinner - i had never realise tt to have a dinner is jus so dam hard. We mus walk all over just to find a place for 13 and is affortable for us... haha photo session again after dinner and tok a photo wif him my BF- eugene, hahah we noe they mus have something behind so we decide to turn away for that pic hahah however in the end we oso got a photo tgt la.. den next up is my another BF- Km, we jus realised tt after so long we had nv taken a photo jus both of us hahah and NOW we got it le haha mus send mi okok bf..

upon reaching home call my BF askin him something den it became a freaking big shocking nite hahah fell asleep abt 230am... woke up early at 9am have breakfast wif mum den go market buy food for dinner and fall by again in my wonderland til 430 hahah...

tt abt my dae tired after so long of helping out in event waking up dam early and stay up til dam late..

hope tt Fina world coaching confer' is a success.

woot 20 Feb i gonna meet my BF for dinner!!! hahahhhaahah

2009-01-12T12:00:00.002+08:00

Boring to be in class !!! but coz lydia got a GOOD idea to have a play... and we got BINGO...
EE lesson as usual so tiring cun boring.. todae is abt kyoto Protocol.. WADS TT man...

read some blog again and recall wad happen pass few daes.. 1 comment for all this daes.. 1 down all down..

12th jan.. Happy Birthdae to Kang Ming.. hahah a very good start for u school starts on his birthdae... hahah and end sch at 5 which is so late haha..

11th jan- mum birthdae was at home the whole dae wif her.. early morning went breakfast wif her den at home slept... den help wif some work...

10th jan- meeting wif oc den meet up wif buddy again but wif NEW ppl Isaac along.. we were taking our time at 1st but den at abt 630 we started rushing here and there.. calling up the same ppl for advises.. and 1st time ever!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i step out from tt stupid shop...

9th jan- Water based lesson.. hahah have a short tok wif leen.. got to noe she was be suspected to get dengue. hahah so dangerous.. lesson jus so boring and time passes when in pool.. kayaking rescue technic.. re-entry.. hahah wad's the different between X-rescue and T rescue.. and wad's HI rescue....

Life is jus so unpredictable.. u jus got to cherish every single minutes.. so fast 16 week in sem 2 is goin end soon.. we are changing class again.. lydia and jaz and ohp are in sem 1. I'm in sem 2. this few daes they are not being themselves.. jus got something different.. shouldnt have come sch todae...

...nth much...

2009-01-07T01:04:00.003+08:00

Todae whole day tokin abt Mayday in school wif laura haha.. so cool la both of us so high when sharing.. although it's over alr.. hahah alrite shall go sleep le lesson oso nth much den my dae jus passed.

met lin at nite for dinner.. woodlands to CCK to Kallang

finally i meeting hui tml le.. so cool so i mus go sleep early so i won b late meeting her..

Why bother so much abt relationship?? hei ppl look at ur FRENSHIP too.. wads more impt??

Leave No Trace in Life...

垃圾车

2009-01-06T17:19:00.018+08:00

虽然你脾气坏对待朋友又差凸槌又更爱牵拖
佳在你遇到我不爱计较的我算你坏人有好命

我走路你坐车你吃饭我洗碗你被欺负我拼命
若为了爽到你可以艰苦到我因为咱缘分不可散

有你我才未孤单
有你的陪伴我才有靠山
你若不爽我是你的垃圾车
每天听你的心声

有你我才未孤单
有你的陪伴我才有靠山
你若欢喜我是你的垃圾车
每天听你唱歌

感情若想要满杯底就要呼干这杯就爱饮呼干
这杯你饮呼干这杯我饮呼干
咱这箱拢饮呼干拢饮呼干

五月天 - 垃圾车

MAyday

2009-01-05T14:22:00.002+08:00

How i spent my last last two days of holidae...

2nd last dae (SAT 3/1): went out wif lin and kelvin.
going round and round in town area.. as usual lin fetched mi and den kelvin.. coz she nv go sch again.. den went to town to shop den got idea on wad to do for our GOH of the month. Spend quite a long time to search for it, changed place to Kelvin terroritory still don have, hwever we got another GOH present, den went to vivo search and search again DON have bk to town at abt 9 plus and nth still but lin bought her shoe... stay in tt shop til it closed den lin almost forgot tt she haven pay for her shoe haha.. finally we can have our dinner. SO change place again to ps and have our dinner.. Service by them is dam poor la.. cant stand it well tt how Singaporean work. Change place again to ave 8 mac.. chat chat till 2 plus abt NP stuff.. well i think tt dae kelvin and I had almost the same thinking.. and i realised Kelvin is really a pontential CI but jus tt the OC haven really realise how good is he. He is jus a kind a person tt I will really used this statement on him. "Don judge a book by it's cover"

Last day ( Sun 04/1): Woke up at 10 plus den went out meet bao, bkft cum lunch den chat on bs towad Indoor stadium. Started queuein for mayday concert at 2plus as it's free standing den alr got ppl started queue by both of us still quite in front ... rained. after rain, mi and bao started to play our game wif the poker card tt i bought along and her psp, sher's ds..but the fun part was we both jio the ppl behind to play dati hahah den two gals in front oso joined 4 of us tgt so total 6. hahah so cool rite while queuing i can oso make fren wif. soon after playing we all moved forward den at 7pm, we got in. Choosing our place tt we can see haha 1st time in my life i'm so close to the stage tt i can se all of them so clearly even thought i'm not in the 1st row yet i'm at the 1st few row ot blking by tall guys.. coz all infront of mi and bao and our two new female fren are all abt my shoulder height except for two tall guy but no blkin too much.. not excited when waiting in front the stage but when they were out! gosh HIGH SEY!!!! scream jump sweat.... who cares man... the atmosphere was like WOW at the 1st song, so imagin when they carry on singin haha... JUMP JUMP JUMP... zhen de shi HIGH FAN TIAN.. mayday jiu shi mayday... SHUAI!!

thot of 2 yrs ago over at expo.. 1st mayday concert oso not tt high as compare to ytd coz is outdoor... hahah

goin off from sch now haha lesson ended for 1st dae of schooling...

2009-01-03T00:32:00.001+08:00

What do you get when you fall in love?
A guy with a pin to burst your bubble
That's what you get for all your trouble.
I'll never fall in love again.
I'll never fall in love again.

What do you get when you kiss a guy?
You get enough germs to catch pneumonia.
After you do, he'll never phone you.
I'll never fall in love again.
I'll never fall in love again.

Don't tell me what is all about,
'Cause I've been there and I'm glad I'm out,
Out of those chains, those chains that bind you
That is why I'm here to remind you

What do you get when you fall in love?
You get enough tears to fill an ocean
That's what you get for your devotion.
I'll never fall in love again.
I'll never fall in love again.

What do you get when you fall in love?
You only get lies and pain and sorrow.
So, for at least until tomorrow,
I'll never fall in love again!
I'll never fall in love again!

Don't tell me what it's all about
`Cause I've been there and I'm glad I'm out
Out of those chains, those chains that bind you
That is why I'm here to remind you. (here to mind you) 3x
What do you get when you fall in love?
You only get lies and pain and sorrow
So, for at least, until tomorrow
I'll never fall in love again
Oh, I'll never fall in love again

this song was the song tt I'm been listening to this few daes coz i watched meteor garden again ... haha

2009-01-02T21:57:00.002+08:00

The good life is inspired by love and guided by knowledge.

Life is hard sometimes, but there is always a reason for why it is.

Gratefulness is the key to a happy life that we hold in our hands, because if we are not grateful, then no matter how much we have we will not be happy -- because we will always want to have something else or something more.

Twenty years from now you will be more disappointed by the things you didn't do than by the ones you did do. So throw off the bowlines. Sail away from the safe harbor. Catch the trade winds in your sails. Explore. Dream. Discover.

“Many of the great achievements of the world were accomplished by tired and discouraged men who kept on working.”

“They may forget what you said, but they will never forget how you made them feel.”

The first step to getting the things you want out of life is this: Decide what you want

Love this life quote - "Scars are like memories, and tattoos. When you fall, when your heart breaks, and when your best friend turns her back on you, it leaves a scar that can hurt every-time you think about it. It’s a memory that is stuck in your head. It’s in the past, but it comes back and bites. It’s a tattoo because it’s a memory that hurts, but doesn’t disappear. It never does. When you see it so vividly, you sometimes regret what led to the scar that is a memory that leaves an imprint in your life’s history."

never have regrets because at one point everything you did in life was exactly what you wanted (learnt something like this for daddy when under going the course wif him)

Sometimes life comes at you fast. The least you should know is that you can do anything if you try, and that nothing can stop you. You are what you say you are, and no one can take that away from you. Life is that valuable thing that is unique to you. No one can change it; just you. And endure till the end! The battles not done till all the men are down.

Nothing will come to you if you don’t go for it! It takes just a step to achieve your goals!

Life is all about challenges.To become an overcomer,you don’t have to allow obstacles become an impediment but rather a stepping stone to your goals.

Motivation is what gets you started. Habit is what keeps you going.

Consider how much more you often suffer from your anger and grief, than from those very things for which you are angry and grieved.

I got a simple rule about everybody. If you don't treat me right -- shame on you!

Since the house is on fire let us warm ourselves.

Leadership is practiced not so much in words as in attitude and in actions.

Learning is just like doing marketing

1st training...

2009-01-02T21:16:00.003+08:00

2/1/09

Yea!! 2nd dae of 2009.. wad i did? slept til 11am last min pack my NP stuff which i realized tt i only got uniform and thumbdrive to bring out to sch..
shld have woke up at 7am iron and polish my boots, but den still can wake up on time.. woke up like at abt 650am msg lin to wake her up for her 1st dae of sch which her mum was looking forward so much haha...

den slept bk = didnt polish my boots...

met gordon and my sch 2 new P/CI for lunch but i was 15mins late as usual for our CI lunch be4 training at 107... hiaz as usual CLs were late for reporting time 130pm - 145- 146.. same old thing happened... poor CLs got tt from mi again but todae still slack for them... 10-10-10-10-5

not thing much for Trainin promotion test for sec 3s hiaz CMI only a few can make it.. do half way oso sian den started playin wif them as 5 cadets went off for sch meeting... next test for them is on 1st feb trainin.. i hope they do their homework... and todae thanks to Mr Oei, I think he is the only 1 tt noe who I feel and oso for all SGS CIs.. and well our AGM finally is comin. hope is not like last yr.. but like previous yr..

Yes CIs our time is here to proposal wadever we want to do for the unit and get our things done.. wadever Miss Seow mentioned to mi todae i only replied her 1 same answer "Yes we can do UNLESS WE CLEAR OUR STUFF".. the time is here where we missed last yr. get all our dates ready for wadever camps or training or tests or lectures NOT FORGETTING OUR FUN ACTITIVES...

so much abt NP todae..

Annie Dillard:

How we spend our days is, of course, how we spend our lives.

New year new dae...

2009-01-01T12:52:00.003+08:00

1-1-2009

Happy new year to all my frenz, world of broz nda sistaz..
everything will be fine for this year...
wadever is over mean it's over...
thanks some broz for appearing in my life... covering up all my sadness, brighten up my daes...

31 dec:

woke up late as usual bk to old life, not working so woke up late...
read abt got to noe some1 is down.. as a fren, i msg him askin how is he. replied from him 'don ask le ok'.. ok fine being mi i won ask jus tell him if he need somemoe to tok to i'm here.. but den i got a veri good answer for tt "No ...." for tt moment i was of a total sian and OK FINE!! reaction..

off my phone internet watch meteor garden again...
met lin to celebrate the last dae wif her... another great dae..

now new year new start... I gonna be bk to working life.. die die mus find a job le no excuses 4 myself.. coz this month I'm dead... surviving myself wif no cash....

new year new hope new start...

2008-12-29T18:55:00.003+08:00

SORRY BEN!!!! sorry for not updating poor emo blog for so long!!!

qy: i do it rite now ok ben!

well, YES it's a long time tt i haven been updating..
1st: i don get to use my sister com so often coz need take turn and wait my 2 sister to use 1st den i can have my turn...
2nd: busy this few daes so nv get a chance to update my life
3rd: too tired to blog when i'm home

23 dec went out wif lin yea our gathering session hahah wad we did ehhhh couldn't remember for now haha..

24 dec morning went out wif lin haha go east coast to check out our chalet room hahah got some plan for the chalet.. wad if we cannot bbq over there... wad if too many ppl stay over nite how?? went have lunch wif her at bishan Mos and she sent mi to over to fren hse...

3plus i reached WC hse coz reporting time is 3-4pm so i reached there quite early.
best part WC not at home.. NP gang all at orchard shopping for present... I'm alone at WC hse man haha but nv play wif Weian... and there it goes for my day 12h staying over at WC hse.. it's a birthday cum christmas party for us coz is weian birthday on 24 and we counting down for xmas tgt too. THANK YA FRENS FOR UR GIFT.. have lot of fun and have some office tok most impt IT's CLEAR... everything shld be clear... play mahjiong, poker... haha well tt abt it. shld have gone to ice cube gathering bt too late liao cab fare too ex so nv go down.. PS la shereen and Boss...

25dec met lin to buy chalet thingy tgt. hahah den yan and han my 2 cousins came over to my hse to stay over nite so played wii wif them hahah

26 dec shld have meet lin at 4pm but den cousins were still at my hse so cannot go over to chalet early.. only went to meet Kang Ming at 830pm den meet lin they all for their dinner at arnd 9.. den REPORTED at U06 hahah started horald and Rumar for guys and ladies(buddies) packing up the room and food den IR sessions hahah and den horror movies time til i knock off at 5am plus plus cannot stand alr.. 25 nite i doesnt have a good slp.. slp without anything jus my bed.

27 dec morning woke up sat outside room to have my reading coz too cold alr... den after tt went breakfast and shop of bbq thingy again... moved to F06.. and BEN u came... so everything it all abt it...

28 dec went grandma hse at12plus thanks to lin sending mi 1st tt i wasnt late.. went simple invitation entertaining some relatives... den go HOME slp the whole day...

2008-12-22T01:14:00.002+08:00

another post for this few daes...

emo emo emo emo emo emo emo emo emo emo emo emo emo emo!!

i gonna end all this soon enough.. STOPPING ALL THIS SHIT THINGY...
life is in a mess now.. time to sort out everything, makin all the decision i shld ha make. a new start from 09...

1st I shall thanks my OC for the last min of sending me wif HQ for HKT08 met a total of 40 plus of students from many many schs and 7 great special peepz...
when i was emo-ing there is 1 special lady wif mi all the time shallnt say her name everyone noes it.. 4 great guys sharing lots of laughter spendin time wif mi alth they didnt noe i was down at 1st and we are jus out for our gathering..

2nd thanks to this guy make my life becoming more and more emo..digging a hole as and when i faced difficulties while he will nv get to know abt it.. game over??? i thinks soon enough... will be bk to normal.. i shall let it be... from e bottom of my heart... shall not bring it up again from the corner in my world...

3rd thank to this lady... I realised and found out more abt jus being a fren and a sis... not jus the defination.. a new restart doesnt make much different... times not being tgt wif each other really make a part.. and well like wad jj said.. blog really make a part in a person life, expressing out all the feeling... thank for being there for mi.. and well now i noe things tt i did made u so irritated... there won be next time..

went out late this few 2 days after i came bk from genting.. met up wif lin to go collect her cadet now a PCI cibtc squad shirt... den went our chitchat confession session part 3/4.. hahah den next dae morning met her and drove me to Clementi where i have went for induction.. den slack at KFC from 1plus til 415... walking up and down the small circle of shops.. went CIBTC POP haha well thot of 2yr ago... NOE WAD XIAOWEN mdm still remember mi haha i took photo wif her again haha i so happy tt she still remember mi aha

cadet becoming CI and den Became CI..

went out for dinner wif the special ones haha.. great time great days.. as per normal 1-2 journey sending us bk home.. poor little car.. from Clementi- bukit Merah - woodlands, hougang - tampines - pasir ris...

2008-12-22T00:49:00.002+08:00

Post to my D@rlin9 aka TQY..

Well it's time for u to enjoy life in Npcc.. i bet it will nv be the same in future..
although now u are the one mostly kena nagged by mi and other CIs.. however u get to noe more thing from there rite..

the higher u climb the greater the responsibilities u get..
the journey will nv be smooth always... the process of it is the most fun and enjoyable of everything...

was once facing the same problem as u and i chose not to go NP anymore for my last yr after getting the rank and everything in my 4 yrs of np, i even gave up the 2nd chance of going camp-craft com in 06, til the very last training and pop i turned up.. well 1 word for all this "regretted".. life jus having studies n no np is jus so NO LIFE in sec sch daes!!! it's all in ur mind... everything is good...

Experience will keep u on going having more and more memorable daes and times wif ur frens...

life in npcc is not easy.. 3 words that driven me far from myself..."determination above all" by ferlin aka bao-captain of camp-craft gals team 04

qy

2008-12-19T14:52:00.003+08:00

Well I see the point of it.. u still holding on to it for tt dae after i came bk to singapore from hk..

I'm so sorry that the same old problem still on between us... perhaps maybe this is the end of everything... u won have to try ur best to appear in front of mi.. coz i will choose not to appear in front of everyone else if making u so difficult.. and yes this is my choice i donoe is it rite or wrong to make this move..

or izzt from the start of everything I'm the different out 1 in the click...

u did this move be4 and now izzt my turn to do so...

how long haben we meet up ever since our last gathering...

why is this happening..

why u feel sad when u reading my blog..

why m i crying now!!!!!!!

Back!

2008-12-19T13:28:00.002+08:00

Well Frenz, I'm back ytd nitez..

How was life for that 4 daes... this time round the trip izzt tt much fun as compared to previous trip over there... Aunties having argument almost everyday.. 8 aunt- nagging at us spending too much $$ here and there, she nv follow us to outdoor park yet went to JACKPOT tgt wif her Bf.. Poor bf wanna tagged along wif the rest of us coz of her he couldn't...
(i think when u're oversea u shld jus spend on wadever u want y nag... yes $$ but jus control can alr mah.. den everydae go jackpot if not don wan go other place coz it's too cold!! omg la...1st time in genting it's a mus to experience the cold weather..)

1st dae - reached and did nth but shopping looking out wad to get for myself and frens.. World of cantoon the 1st stop.. last yr got something out from there this yr hmm nothing for mi.. went addidas, oman no much different from S'pore la.. and the price is like $265+rm, and wif this same price but hk dollar I can get a addidas jacket too but is over at hk la..hahah

2nd dae- early morning got a small argument wif Pingz.. throw my phone on mi.. stupid sister set alarm to wake up to meet them wad man..
meet up wif the aunties and cousins again have breakfast at Lakeview restaurant.. dim sum meal $16+.. kao man.. bad service from the lady who service us the 2 table..
wadever table a ordered mess up wif table b when they service...
menu wrote 1x... all of us thot is like 1x = 3 pieces according to normal dim sum..
but it's not la 1x is = 1 pieces nia.. hiaz wadever it is, it's just not the rite way to start the dae.. Aunties having argument again..

nv did much stuff coz cannot go outdoor due to the weather... SHOPPING LOR...
at nite all of us went up to genting highland resort. went take a look at the arcade there.. wow so many big soft toys... wanna get it but den see the score to have it is like impossible for us.. den look arnd us almost every kids are holding on to 1 soft toys la.. we nv play still don wan waste the $ aunties argument itme again..(wan let the kids play 1 don wan) time to go jackpot again left 7aunt, mi and 5 children we went out take photo despite the cold weather outside.. super COOL man... and cant see anything far down.. den went bk 1st world to have starbuck haha woot hot drink for mi...den waiting for all of them to come bk and bk to hotel.. nv endin of jackpots, i take care of 2 cousins and their mum went pot-ing.. and i slpt

3rd day- simple breakfast for all of us coz we goin out to theme park..
yes we did went out but we nv get to play much thrilling activities.. SUPER SUPER LONG QUEUE la.. den the weather get cooler and cooler = misty weather = cannot see much thing = cannot play much game.. in the end we spent more $$ on those throwing games if u lucky den u will get.. in the afternoon the weather gets even cooler den we got to stop awhile kids cant stand it.. den 3-4plus continue i went took a ride on the roller coaster wif 9 aunt and 2 cousins, waited for 45min- 1hour just to have the ride which is only 1 min++ ( thot of hk trip, haha eugene and i were sitting tgt. eug keep laughing at mi.. so i thot of him so daring taking photo when going up to bad i nv open my eyes tt point of time) this time rnd i did open all the way but den donnoe how come i injury myself.. looking bk from history when every i have all this up and down coaster i cannot open my eyes if not i will injury myself.. which is true..

nite time shd by indoor activities but due to my injury i didnt play.. but went bk outdoor to play those lucky lucky game..haha well this time rnd all of us were veri lucky 1st try we got soft toys haha comparing to afternoon spendin so much $$ just to get a few toys..

tt's it for 3rd dae...

last dae.. Final shopping time.. yes I got a WALLET for myself.. haha after choosing so many i got 1 and is the only piece. all i chose were all last piece but well i still get it..

mus get coz i don like after shopping so many daes and i don get anything for myself die die oso mus get it.. hahah and noe wad after i bought the wallet, i'm broke = nth for my fren.. hahah

bk to singapore!!!

2008-12-15T00:38:00.000+08:00

Nitez for me. thanks to the weather i got to sleep on my sofa in my living room alone.. Letting my mum to have my bed cox the floor is too cold for her to sleep so i give my bed for her..so now i'm on my sofa... Going genting soon haha all the best for my fren miss all of u this four days :) writing tis post thru mobile haha nitez

2008-12-14T14:51:00.002+08:00

Wad abt ytd? I'm very sorry to Mr Ong...

Sorry for not handling well enough for the situation...
Along dae for my buddy wif her poor car....
42.127km of window shopping.. looking for someone's present...
and had ice cream again... 1 = good 1= bad.... hiaz..

this few daes I won have chance to enjoy my ice cream much dey...
nite time reached my blk but nv get out from the car coz again another confession.. throwin out everything to my buddy... She cried....

Everytime I have to face this problem thinking of making decision..
And I know wads is my answer long ago nv choose to do it which lead mi now.. lost in my way of life, sad thingy the world still carrys on even i nv made the decision. Hopefully i can make it on this Sat CIBTC POP... All going but how abt mi??? thinkn in process...

Kayaking

2008-12-12T22:46:00.003+08:00

Well today is a very tired day for mi... last nite didnt have a gd slp and today woke up early... woke up got to give a morning for someone.. msg mi tell mi something earlier than 7 can call liao so i called.. got a replied u can call mi again at 730 ? haha i half aslp half awake ok lor i call u again.. went bk my kayaking lesson stuff as per normal. Wet attire and dry attire jus tt today forgot to bring out shampoo and shower out so lucky still okay haha got clan wif mi nothing much to worry haha... 733n on bus again called lor and woke up liao but den got a feelin will still go bk slp 1 for sure .. 8 reach interchange called again ya for sure woke up liao... haha kind of hard to be a person to give morning call ar.. hahah

thur morning called for lin, eugene and ryan.. haha phone hang half way thru...

bk to lesson..

carry on from kayaking proceding from skills and concept, tried technicques todae.. all those 1 star level basic technic... forward & reverse sweep stroke.. (C-stroke), Classic stroke, J-stroke and stern rudder... ahah not forgettin CAPSIZE DRILL... fii aka fyy still the saem lack of the cofident on herself still didnt try it out... today cannot be wif her.. no mood to guide ppl along the way however ai chin was there wif her... todae veri small class 7 ppl 2 team.. 6 of us except fii we did our capsize tgt woot started our 2nd meeting in the pool... so cool man...

whole day under the sun again haha donoe got get more tan anot.. haha hopefully got la...

since is a day in the pool playing wif water, i wasnt like normal pool lesson.. todae i was all along alone tryin out only sometime wif Jaz.. soakin myself in the pool is the best way for mi todae to keep my mind awake... not off tracking too much.. hard time was during last break out doing reseacrh.. GOSH. Presentation time, I didnt understand wad I was presentin la and I'm the 1st speaker somemore... den explain answer to jaz for her question make mi think alot... and confusing too... waited ten mins later all of us get in water, practice our skill.. jaz bob and mi capsize again.. hahah so fun keep doing capsize..

after lesson suppose to go home but nv ahah and in sch lyd bob and mi bought something bk ahahh (lin will get to noe it tml when i meet her) i gave one to sophia jus happened to meet her and she ar really noe mi well.. one look she msg me "u not feeling well ar!!" sista for 1 sem hahah so good ar although this sem nt tt close..

went mac wif lyd for ICE CREAM again.. hahaha ytd jus have a regular B"n"J. Ice cream to mi really plays a impt part in my life whenever I'm down I will have Ice Cream... so jus nice both i/c session = sad case...

now at grandma hse over nite here.. different feelin haah so long nv stay le.. hehe good to come more often... yea lin tt's y i can only meet u afternoon haha coz morning i need go home 1st haha...

yea tt's all abt todae.. not much thing le Aching and tired for todae.. but FUN..

letting things out from my heart makes my life happier...

wad a day...

2008-12-12T01:20:00.002+08:00

What a dae for mi... BAD DAE......

morning late for school went have breakfast wif Clan, confirm I cannot take coffee in the morning or afternoon...went tok late abit... got to noe my FYP is at 1st sem which = IIP (intenship) on 2nd sem... worst is tt my Clan IIP falls on 1st sem.. no one wif mi next sem... even lunch oso no 1....FYP team gone....

after tt work lor work.... haiz... play wif sand in class reseacrh on map reading... haha MGR ahah contour... all I return bk to miss Chinnah le... haha.. end lesson quite early.. slack around here and there.. finally time to report for Play until stupid... haha saw darren and gordon ho there la haha so qiao and suprise they will attend this kind of stuff haha... all coz of the CE thingy la haha...

ok did many things during the course... shallnt blog of it and oso the rest of the day..

being mistaken....hahaha

crying in process.... why why crying in process...!!!!!!

lydia & Jaz - I'm trying my best to smile.. i'm sry but i canot todae.. tml hopefully i can do it and be bk as mi..

I'm sorry got to tell u tt I'm fine but actually i'm not... (u noe who u are)

2008-12-09T15:07:00.003+08:00

Who will be the one up next tt i will post a post for leh??? hahahah well shldnt be peeps from hkt.. ar bo later my npz gang peeps will like hmmm... qiao yi now got her hkt fren enough le...

well mention abt it.. it was how long ago i tok to them meet up wif them??? are they all doing fine.. shld be bah... hahah well life still carry on without mi wif them... rite.. izztnt tt i wanna left the grp awhile to think of how i'm goin works out wif them the gangs wif them??? i remember be4 i left s'pore to HK i wanna a rest and i left all thing behind leaving everything off and enjoy myself.. now i realise it's just a way tt i run away from my problem.. I have force myself to enjoy as much as possible not thinkin of this gang thingy.. well i did it i made it.. not so by force.. at 1st was by force.. but as days passed by i really enjoy wif them in the trip...

came bk she called mi was still ok... until a moment.. she gave up... well i noe myself.. so tt's it... i nv made it to his birthday where everyone were there bah i guess so... i was baking muffins for 3 buddies and special ppl..

while i think i jus want to say this out to everyone or whoever cares and those who don bothers, jus hack care, thinkin is all excuses shity..

hong kong trip 08 was the 1st trip tt i went wif some grp tt i really don noe any one there expect 2 cadets... it's neither sgs npcc trip, sgs sch trip, rp sch trip nor family trip... so it's a brand new grp of frens tt i have met.. and we donoe each other yet we have to spend 7 days tgt... i not sure how u guys will feel but is something new for mi... i really cherish them so much haha.... til a extend tt really they jumped straight to my top list of fren world... perhaps u guys have tried be4 and think it not impt or wad so special but it's my fren my grp of buddies i having for 7 days from not noeing them till we are so close...

so i think tt's all i wanna say... writing this post is a really sad post for mi...
i choose not to run away liao.. tgt i leaving this 2 thing away.... hahah

start all over again..

understandable

2008-12-08T17:16:00.002+08:00

I understood alr.. i got everything clear enough already... it shall end over here and not suppose to carry on further.. i will not go in deep be4 the history is happening back on mi again.. no a big NO..
it's so clear for myself i gonna accept it.. or in fact i alr accept but just refuse to do so...

thanks to my buddy...it will just be in one corner of my world...

Letting off it... i noe i can do it de... my frens are all wif mi...

2008-12-08T12:40:00.002+08:00

SLp ytd 4pm in the afternoon.... woke up at 1130am... so tired man..

1130pm ytd nitez reached TM mac.. den have ice cream and APPLE PIE....

1200-1245- rotting at Taxi stand waiting for the stupid bus to fetch us...

finally came and board the bus head down to Padang.. haha 5 bus in total at TP to Padang

started sharing stories wif Lydia aka qiao yi for the day.. on the bus we should be slping but we share our stories thru out the bus journey.. haha

1pm plus we reached and registered our name took our shirt change.. 2am...

waited and rotted over there at the field from 2am - almost 4am...

waiting for bus again the organizer crew member said your guys are late run run.. WED THUR FRI man.. they are the one who let us waited for hours over at the field and bus are all over there waiting too.. ur management were then the 1 draggin everything ...

got up the bus.. 4am plus

on bus share wif jaz aka lydia for the dae our stories again.. she share hers too.. haha whenever 3 of the clan tgt we will share our own stories... haha den she gave mi alot of advises so i got my idea of what i will want myself 2 do...

reached rottin time again.. until almost 6 den start workin preparing the drinks.. den realised eh the 1st runner is reaching soon... haha the 100plus ppl den get started preparing there 100plus... den kena say by some crew... haha there it start my job... 6 plus 1st few runner pass by drink station 14 den at abt 7-8-9plus ppl started making they u turn bk to finishin point passin by DS 14 and it was our busy time... pouring and pourin and pouring.. (i like having a bath wif 100plus) haha runner grab and go don care they spill it or wad so ever.. if they nv finish drink dropped it and tt's it to us... and when ppl pouring 100plus in the cup oso don care just pour and our shoe from white to brown la.. my poor little kappa shoe... hiaz...

everything ends or so at around 1030 den we packed jus need to place the water bottles nicely at the 1 place can liao.. after tt rottin time again... waiting for bus which donoe what time will come fetch us bk... 1 whole event we were lik rottin here and there...

bk to Padang took our $$ have our lunch... called darling see where is he.. but den nv go find him coz lazy and tired to do so haha... went home and tt's it for the day

reached home 3 plus bath and on9 awhile slp at 4 plus til 113am today....

2008-12-06T22:19:00.001+08:00

You often have problem in promoting yourself, just because you don't know how to express your true self. On the other hand, you don't really care what they think. This is why people misunderstand you until they really get a chance to learn about your pleasant personality. Opposite sex find you mysterious and worth searching. Your wit is remarkable but sometimes you are too fast to follow. Your Love, You won't reveal your feeling even after dreaming about the same guy over and over. Your first love lasts forever. You are responsible to the feeling of your lover. The chance to betray your lover is none. You have luck with children.

2008-12-06T21:15:00.002+08:00

sister all not at home.. left mi and my mum... poor mum waiting for her green bean from dad... n dad donoe at where coming back home already bo...

Post specially for someone (Hui, leen got it nia)
A post for someone special... Now is for her

Alright, I got a sudden thought of writing this post to some one who is a lady I got to know her not long ago. 1st time I meet her was at HTA one of the wed for Hong Kong trip 08. 2nd time I meet her was at T1 17 nov reporting to her getting ready to HK. I spent 7 days, a week with her over at Hong Kong. I realised she is a much caring and sporty Teacher Officer as compare to some other TOs.. She is very cute, she will mingle around with cadets and CIs.. Everyone gets along well with her. She fights for every right that the cadets should have to perform as the cadets have spent so much effort in it. She was there guiding the cadets together with 3 CIs help teaching the dance steps. She spent $$ on cadets to reward them for doing well improving and appreciated what the cadets have did. When night time, she will be part of the IR team in 2708. haha she will also bring us out to buy our night time supper, and will never forget to buy coffee for herself. Time to sleep?? 130 remind her to have her beauty sleep. She will goes okok wait till 2. haha 2 will drag til 3 haha...

Morning she will have her energy back in her and it's FUN time for all.. Photo taking sessions, playing sessions with her will always be so enjoyable. Ocean Park.. She chiong all the way trying out all the thrilling activities, no matter how afraid, how scary it might be she still carry on. Most importantly, although she cant feel her ... when playing the activities her energy gets even higher. Ticks and ranking was given by her to all activites she done after getting wet... Even if we were all late we do mind to get scolded and still carry on the most was that we ran all the went down to meet the rest of the group... SO EXCITED. The times she met some unhappiness, 7 special people were the 1 together with her. At airport, she bought all CIs a box of gift, so sweet. After coming back from Hong Kong, at T1 all over us were to separate back to our life. Saying to bye makes me so sad, not bearing to leave her at all. Don't wish to leave the place. But no choice we have to. After Hong Kong Trip, 1st gathering was to celebrate her birthday together with 2 special people Syahami and Eugene. Another fun day together.. 204 photos taken by 1 camera. HAHA playing bowling at MS (she is a pro at bowling man), after that dinner at buger king. And of course the cake time and presents times too...

1st, 7 Special people with her gathering. HAHA MOVIE CHATS AND CONFESSION.. STAYING OUT LATE NITE... I met and found my new best friend...

Especially for you Miss Salinah...

Qiaoz.. QY...

super boring!!!

2008-12-06T17:24:00.002+08:00

while time to blog after so long, i haben been really sitting down to write a post....

shall not blog on hkt anymore.. coz each time i thot of it, i went off track deep inside... ain't helpin myself... shld listen to wad hui(my besta sistaz) said stop goin in...

last sundae celebration.. monday went sch for lesson again boring for leisure .. Raine blow during lesson... not in the rite track of wad she wan us to do... 830 lesson only she, mi, pd and jaz nia... peeps jus started coming in at 845.. fire up man....

tuesday a bad day... don think of going sch de wanna go acer fix my com.. but coz Clan is there so i went.. and who noe 1st meeting the adaptor went wrong jess almost kena electric... thanks to her i found out the adpator is spoilt.. so i went off at 1st meeting chiong down to acer check out.. den found i need $300 to get it fixed i was like shit man... i went bk sch... stunt ... hiaz so now com can use but no adaptor so low batt mean canot usele... hiaz

wed no sch.. went meet miss lee pass her stuff for UOPA.. den meet ping for breakfast... as per normal.. slp den woke up go do my hair, stay there abt few hours (whole afternoon msging isaac) and went home wait for mum to visit 4 e... tt's all

thur went sch lesson wif addison haha woot did kayaking haha our 1st kayakin lesson for water based... tried using playboat... rather small compare to kayak tt seen outside.. 2nd meeting the class tried out certain thing and i was being volunteed to demo capsize drill in front the class.. haha while haha i passed the drill when demo so addi wanna the rest to do so in pair.. went wif fii she was super scared tt she could come out from the boat hence took a long time to tried out her 1st time.. den i accompany her do 2nd time.. 2nd time she waited even longer.. haha but as we change to big pool, she get in the boat row out.. she CAPSIZED haha try out nv really did it jus row out she capsize hahha... 3rd meetin rained.. but still we go chance to get into pool to demo... den bath have test... hoping for something for whole day... msg sent out but it's a full stop tt returns bk to mi..

fridae... went sch super early to borrow lappy yes i got it..but i forgot to bring out my phone along wif mi haha (meeting ma'am and CIs after school) den nvm same lesson reseacrh reseacrh and reseach... urge to go off early meet them sia.. but still i stay bk til last ... ahah and met them

got up the car and they start making fun of mi haha i was like errrr haha thanks thanks.. went to hta return blazer.. den waited for ma'am CIT saw nazirah and jian wei.. haha CIT let mi thot of myself i saw janet, xiaowen but all forget abt le le bah... saw andy from far away.. chatted for awhile.. den finally 7pm they were being release out from CIBTC.. by rite we shld watch 7pm show but we change haha 915 show haha... went eat.. watch movie... lido haha 1st time in my life i step in to lido.. haha so lousy man... show started. all 5 of us scream and tio chua til thru out the show lor... hiaz finally it end... den went TCC chatted alot abt npz stuff haha.. went off at 245am from CQ bk home.. Kelvin went off 1st, Eugene, Syahami den mi and ma'am. long way bk home bk nvm haha.. after all the guys went dropped, ma'am and i have our ladies tok... i threw out everything haha not leaving any single thing out... hahaha.. reach alr still sit inside tok awhile... den ok la i dropped off and ma'am went home....

go home i'm like a theft slowly carefully open door and wadever.. haha mum slp alr coz i reached home at abt 4am haha.. so yea man.. tt's all...

todae super boring at home alone.. hiaz later goin SCM help out le.. all the best for us and runner who are there... hope i can see some ppl i noe in my station...

please stop appearing in my.... . I don wan force myself coz i realise the more i force myself the more i... so i going let it go off slowly...

2008-12-04T21:29:00.002+08:00

quick update abt myself...

lappy is pronounced dead... batt can only last 30 mins..
adaptor spoilt...
screen screw came off by itself.. swing here and there when i using...

$300to save my lappy , $110 to buy adaptor... i rather buy new com....

sundae combo celebration... hahah so fun.. i acted innocent over there while peeps playing wif cakes... still kena the cake thanks to isaac.... all CIs there except nurul and ryan not that... if there won tt be great???

http://s488.photobucket.com/albums/rr242/qiao_yi/Combo%20Celebration/ (all 30/11)

above link to see all photos if not flickr.com to see selected photos...

sry to fren i cannot updated much now.. coz got to save batt to do RJ....

LIFE IN SCHOOL ISN"T ON RITE TRACK WIF NO ADAPTOR ALONG...

BK from HK

2008-11-26T12:56:00.003+08:00

Well after a Week Break, I'm bk here again... leaving all the frens frens thingy that i had be4 far away behind... N i can only see the Frens/ Grps/ Maam & CIs.. I missed them so much man...

This gona be a veri long post... hahah updating & typing down wad we have done and I will always remember all those daes over at HK...

Day 1
-report 0630 T1
-0700-0800 Photo taking session cum check in
-0800 - 1245 waiting for boarding cum reached Hong Kong International Airport- 1300 Ready for our trip. Vic peak.. Repulse Bay. Ave' of Star. SOL
-1100 Bk to Hotel
-0100 IR meeting...

Day 2
-full u all the way..
-visit Police central division
-Male Cell
-police training place (forget what is it called)
-Dinner at nice restaurant
-Practice at nite.
-IR meeting again...

Day 3
- reported in the morning
-breakfast at char chan ting
-went someplace 1st but couldnt remember
-lunch
-went Navy station.
-took the navy ship across the ocean/sea
-pictures session on the ship
-reached and went walked around the small island.
-bk to hk island to have late dinner
-free and easy time to shop nearby shopping centre
-buy fries eating infront of cadats.. tempting them haha (ben)
- practice again
-bk to room IR meeting again...
was wif him almost the whole day...

Day 4 5 6 7 i shall continues next post i wanna slp liao nitez... go to e link to see photo taken by mi... lousy camera.. not space so can only take this few....

http://s488.photobucket.com/albums/rr242/qiao_yi/HK08/

Sian of it le..

2008-11-14T00:34:00.005+08:00

Well, I don wan let history happen again.. I have been trying veri hard to change and maintain the frenship, but really i got no idea how i wan to carry on wif all this.. perhaps wen i come bk from HK bah... actually i don intend to tell much ppl tt i going hk.. but still i went tell some of my fren...

Thanks for calling mi out on that day.. although waited for 1h30min for her... we have played our game veri slowly.. slack.. watch repeat soccer.. tok.. updates.. well okay haha... thanks for the present from u guys.. haha another snoopy from u haha...

however, i not sure whether wad really u guys felt abt mi?? i don wan to doubt and i don dare to doubt myself... i'm taking a look bk at times when we are tgt! i not sure really at times.. i got a feeling tt it's just an entertainment when we meet up.. both of u have ur own topic how abt mi.. i felt total left out... so if a person felt left out will he still wan to carry on??? ya true perhap is coz i don offen chill out wif this grp.. but the timing is not rite for mi.. my lesson now is really hand on so i will be veri tired at times... I got my curfew too.. I don drink outside much u noe de ar.. how often u see mi drink... drink oso like got celebration or something to tok... most imptly i don have tt much of $$..

haben been reading frens blogs for a long time le.. if got read only like his his his hers hers hers.. and now the clan is on facebk trend suddenly and viwawa... so at sch oso playing wif them.. den tues & thur lesson not in class de so not much time to view... left mondae and fri.. fri is a big no to read blog haha coz EE.. monday slack and play lor... haha

went met up wif Kelly and ferlin for our steamboat session again.. haha so cool this time round is ferlin ate alot than both the birthday day of the month haha.... for this will update more...

Neo Qiao Yi is just being childish enough... in those days.. I need go .......! who wan to go wif mi... or who shld i call along this time round... but mus be when i'm bk...

PicZ

2008-11-10T22:17:00.003+08:00

This is the CUTE SNOOPY i got from my frens(refer to previous post for names) wahahah....

Love IT SNOOPY

Bags wif food.. todae after UT went NTUC fair price to buy food for tml trekking.. so cool man haha lesson out of RP haha CHIO ar...

2008-11-09T16:56:00.003+08:00

I GOT A CUTE SNOOPY FROM MY FRENZ...haha all thanks to klai, nemo, peng siong, daniel and boon..Not forgetting the person who... hahahahahaha

I GOT A PACKBAG FROM MY FRENZ... haha all thanks to JJ & his Gf, Wee Chuan & his GF, Alvin & GF, Eileen, Esther, Guang ming, Gordon.. (did i missed out anyone)

This are things that i aimed so hard and wanna to buy but due to sudden plan I.. well I will overcome the crisis de!! Thanks for all ur support frens, clan, sistaz, broz...

went out in the afternoon met up wif wc, joanna, leen, esther, alvin, esther, jj.. haha went cini wanted to watch movie de but den too bad sold out den wana go kbox de in the end nv coz not worth it for happy hour each person $16++ and happy hour is from 2-7 den when we have our lunch is lik 330 super not worth it for jus 3 hours... so went next door KPOOL haha we played pool for 2 hours plus...each person is like jus $6 haha imaging weekend jus few hours six dollars i think was quite cheap... after that we decided to go icekimo for chill out session.. but coz jj was at admirtly not on the way to thomson so he suggested to go NEBO haha at hub so we went too.. great times over there.. william came joined us where the fun part of the day was here haha.. so funny sia hahaha.. and den Daniel called haha time to change grp haha .. (gordon idea to song me to the carpark where the guys picked mi up haha coz he wanna .... i was so ps man)

den went off wif nemo, klai, boon, peng siong and daniel haha.. at 1st we shld go watch movie de but den when meet up tt time, klai asked haha u wanna go Shisha haha so we went shisha.. haha slack there although not sure wad they tookin abt but was still fun in a way.. haha i relax myself after so long of busy work... 12am... they bought a "cake" for mi haha banna split haha wif no candle coz cannot be light up.. and candle is a veri cute one not normal candle but the normal round candle haha. anyway doesnt matter to me haha really have fun man haha cherry was being push to to bottom and I got to take it out by mouth haha so being sporty i did it haha
opened the present they gave mi hahah.. cool man i got the snoopy haha .. haha after tt went katong eat noodles ahha at midnite haha.. and i'm supper full after that.. man...

tt's all abt it bah... great day wif great frenz, sista, broz and great snoopy great bags...

LOVE U SO MUCH MY FRENZ!!haha thanks for everything u guys have done for it... kan ji bu jin & oso the msg wishes i got.. haha tya tya

2008-11-09T02:40:00.002+08:00

New Born Qiao Yi is here alr... 9 nov!! haha I have nv address myself to others that I'm phobe since donoe when... now I jus post it up to fcbk, ppl started asking ur name phobe meh!! haha

anyway new yr new start.. I hope all my frenz, sistaz, broz, dearz,darlinz... all the best and stay happy always.. and we shall oways keep in contact..

Thanks for all the celebrations and presents from my Frenz.. haha i shall blog it here tml aha now tired liao haha...

eat,pool,eat,tokcock,arab,chill,eat,home = FUN!!

Today is a great day...

2008-11-07T23:23:00.003+08:00

haha soon 24hours later... my dae is here... i hope the upcoming year is a gd yr... no more oversea trip this yr...

2008-11-06T00:44:00.002+08:00

I loves my family!! really love them so much... all my 9 aunties, 2 uncles, my 2 sisters, my 2 parents & &&&&& MY GRANDMA!!!

everytime i tell them i going oversea trip wif NPCC they will be very supportive and allow mi to go wif the rest... wana thankx my fifth aunt who always so good enough to "sponser" mi some cash to go oversea.. my 9 aunt, who used to me my god mum when i'm young who oso "sponser" me when i'm oversea wif them... i wanna thanks all my aunt treating mi so well.. I'm so fortunate to be born in the Neo's Family...

My grandma- being so caring to mi and my 2 sisters.. althoug she is those more biased to guy de but den she changed as time passed... she really so good to us.. well her health nowadays not veri gd le.. but she's still strong. jus heard from ping(my elder sister) saying tt grandma is playing on cubic cube haha which we think is good for her...

my parents- thousand and hundred of thanks.. althou we fought almost everydae but as we fought we got better.. pa is on his own working for himself.. mum is working for the family.. now ping mei and mi alr started working for ourselves le so she don have to worry so much bah.. jus that we will work til late enough not home yet, ar bo go out chilled til veri late nv come bah u will worry for us... and well sometime i oso do bear to leave u alone at home...no matter whose birthday is coming soon u will sure buy a cake for us each and celebrate.. this yr i won go out le... i promise...

sisterz- thank oso got $$ no $$ we are oso close to share thing wif one another... all of us again fought from young til now hahah.. well tt's our memories... shopping tgt for new year, to x'mas... haha sharing the same room, same study room sharing the same textbook... all i wana say is thanks

This Year is a wonderful year for mi. many things happened, all have came in to my life and have left my life.. foot step have being left behind so i will remember.. ups and downs.. next yr is all over again .. new yr for me a new born qiaoz.. a new yr for mi started by going oversea in dec...

2008-11-05T13:24:00.002+08:00

bo liao nothing to do haha so do up a post.. Mr Obama won the US Presidential election...

2008-11-02T23:39:00.001+08:00

9 nov is nth to mi anymore le seriously.. i don have a feeling to celebrate le... if celebrate i will jus wan to celebrate wif myself.. na jiu gou le...
i really don wan anything le .. hopeless restless...

I remember ur birthdae but i don hope of wan u to remember but at least u noe some where some how my dae is near where.. and yet u r my SISTA/BROZ.. how can...

sudden thot i treat u as sista/broz.. and wad to u treat mi as... well i don hope tt u treat mi as the same as i treat u... but respect mi as a fren... give mi wad a fren shld have...

in a veri bad way of saying... why my birhtdae i mus qian jiu everyone... so wad u working.. i noe u working u guys don wan to travel around.. have u thot of mi... whose birthdae is tt.. i don mind qianin jiu u guys my frenz/sista.broz.. but den this not the way... I GOIN TO MAKE THIS CLEAR I WANNA STEP OUT OF SERANGOON GARDEN FROM NOW ON...

FINA

2008-11-02T01:47:00.001+08:00

Today went FINA thing.. haha so cool man.. out of so mani peeps of volunteer, I took a walkie and wore Long for the event.. jus coz i'm a VIP usher who approach VIP for Prize presentation = get them ready before the prize presentation.

Tml again the same thing. but den haha i find it so fun to work with this grp of ppl..although abit messy la.. so i oso not very sure wad is goin on when i reached the SSS.. report to who and who follow.. haha well tt's the fun of it.. haha learnt mani thing from them.. how they manage their peeps, how they run the events.. haha..

Frenzhips between Jaz, Lydia, Fii & mi is getting better and better.. haha well they have been promoted to my world of frens/sisters/brothers.. haha congrats..

camps- really can be ... (somethingbad) can u imagin a p6 student scoldin "ur mum" "nab." omg la.. other class better abit but den oso spoilt kids.. and i realised i'm have not done a gd job in this camp. again another learning session this 2 daes 1 nite.. this week really kills mi alot however, i learnt alot alot alot of value thing.. Patience.. it let mi realise too much thing le.. now i really wan to go for things tt i wan... If i can get to hk, bk from hk i going to strive all the way... This yr, 9th Nov will be a new start for myself.. A new Qiao Yi a new fren of ur is born..

No one will remember my birthdae falls on which dae/dates. peeps will look for mi asking mi wan i wan. wad i wanna do on the dae... well i shall jus say, i will wan all of my frento remember my birthdae.. that is enough for mi.. present i can don wan coz i can depend on myself to buy all i wan is my fren to remember mi.. well if u forget nvm lor i will stil remember and record down ur birthdae dates.. so frenz don come ask mi where i wanna go out wad i wanna for myself.. if u noe mi well u will noe wad to buy, if u noe mi well u will noe where i wanna go.. simple dinner is good enough for mi... I don wan much.. really.....

bye la seeya... looking forward for my day.. iwannatobehappy...

SO COOL

2008-10-31T15:34:00.002+08:00

So cool.. it's so long that I haben been so busy in my life.. This is wad i called LIFE.. haha after leaving Ice3, I found my life back.. getting busy with all my stuff. Doing all the thing tt i like.. so cool la... today do this. tml do this. the next day do this. the following day do that.. not at home most of the time.. BUSY WIF SOMETHING ON..

well next week will shall be a special week.. I going to enjoy myself tt whole week... haha once a year tt it's... and Cant look forward to go HK trip man.. if can best ar.. if not ok lor.. haha

THis camp is funny but school is a ogosh school.. update on it when i'm free...TMl and Sun is FINA ARENA swimming world cup.. so again busy wif it.. haha

REsting TIME....

tonite should i meet up wif daniel they all?? or meet cheng if can??

Worried

2008-10-27T00:17:00.001+08:00

Freaking busy this week... gosh.... no time man.. total no time to do myself...

2008-10-26T02:36:00.002+08:00

27.10.08 is coming.. after working at ice3 for 1 year and 2 months, i'm leaving there le.. unbear to leave the place.. but I have no choice becoz i don enjoy working tt so much.. I WILL MISS THE FRIDAY AND SATURDAY TIMES.. THE STRESS THAT WE HAVE TO COPE WITH.. alone being the runner for the cafe so cool and zai de lor... only 4 ppl working for the weekend are able to manage the cafe le. no need 6 ppl.. 1 bar 1 runner 2 kitchen.. i will really miss them so much... monday will be my last day.. i donnoe i will cry anot man.. rosline goin over to thomson.. left mi and shereen..

Today, my last day in kitchen wif rosline. last day doing kitchen closing wif alvin..
Tml, my last day doing opening on sunday working wif rosline.. doing bar and runner tgt...
Monday, My veri last day in ice3 being an assitant supervisor.. bar or runner i not sure.. now i thinkin of doing runner coz i come in as a runner so i wanna leave that oso as a runner...

Frens do come ice3 find me wor... last dae le if not nxt time u won see mi there haha.. and i don get ice cream to eat le...

Todae went briefin at Sport school hiaz wasted my time there but den still okay la.. saw alot of familiar faces.. uncle simon, uncle henry, desmond, nic... all preparing on the FINA/Arena SWC Nov 1 & 2... live telecast de wor.. haha mi being a VIP Usher = excoting VIP to stage for prize presentation.. (I may get to appear on TV wor) haha hope got a chance to excot the Big shot ppl haha

past few days were kind of bad daes for mi... hiaz too many things happened le.. don wish to think back of it... i broke the norm le.. i so sad.... WHO IS THERE WIF MI... say bye bye to my 7th "A" for my water based module bah..

Nov Birthday de FRENZ:

3 nov- Shu Ling
5 nov- Nemo
6 nov- Bibek
7 nov- Ah lan gugu
8 nov- Hwee zi
9 nov- Jasmine
11 nov- Kelly
15 nov- Esther
18 nov- Si Jie
20 nov- Hui,Patrick,Jazyln and Beng Hwee

For now i only thot of all this frenz... alot man..

hope tht i can get wad i want...

signing off.. writen on 25/10/08

What the hack is everything abt..

2008-10-17T00:24:00.004+08:00

2 hours of waitin over at coffee shop.. jus to have a dinner wif my old squat mate... after waiting she nv turn up.. from 5 to 730... tt is how long we have waited.. lik an idiot sitting there watching tv show...

went down meet sisters... hiaz drink drank drunk.. i really seriously think tt she better don drink wif her la.. both sister canot get to drink tgt.. if not those who were beside them will sure something.. mi nv go oso kena.. go oso kena... hiaz donoe wad to do to help them.. Made so many wrng move lor... hiazs... don wish to mentioned... jus feel like scold her lor... kg...

ytd was lik drinkin wif them.. don dare to drink coz todae pool lesson again.. so mus control.. hiaz spoilt mood la sometimes.. pool lesson cannot risk.. land can pool cannt...

dam early to end sch.. end lik 230.. haha2 team only.. if this carry on ar.. so cool lor haha easy to get A.. hahaha norms norms...

ok goin slp le so tired to dae pool lesson went swam for 100m and be the rescuer for sometime.. hiaz den tried diving in the pool so cool la..

What I have thot of...

2008-10-12T02:48:00.002+08:00

Mi jus being alone.. why i kept asking myself this question over again and again.. now i found the answer.. The answer was that I closed my door from letting others to come in.. whenever I went out to meet up wif frens, i always keep quiet sitting there alone.. when they chat, i will be there listenin doin my own thing... I'm not sure since when I became like this.. i will only tok alot when i'm wif hui, cheng, eve, wei & ferlin, kelly.. leen sometime oso i keep quiet.. wc errr okok la... still got who.. I really not sure le..oya chris and sher... the two sisters that i got close wif after the camp. Now i think 3 have become 2 as i don always get chance to go out wif them whenever they meet up.. there won be mi over there.. schooling so no time to meet them, at nite if they wan meet i cannot. needa reach home early.. the own time i can get home late will be after work den i can get time to go drink wif them.. i believe the only time tt i have being myself will be when i on9 i chat wif anyone.. however, i somehow always got the wrong timing to chat..

now the day is coming nearer and nearer.. I start to get afraid... I don wan to remind myself but i cant... who will rememeber mi.. who will be will mi.. or i shld say... i will be wif who.. i will remember who..

i planned to go places where i wanna go de le.. but coz of all this I decided not to le.. no point i really find it no point... even a dinner it's so hard for mi.. so i won thot of those daes..

qoute from a fren's saying " if u cannot find anyone when u need them, you will den be a failure"

ytd- after meeting up wif Wc, Leen, Joanna for dinner over at aston. went ice3 meet gordon eat ice cream . decided to walk bk serangoon ave the busstop saw this uncle haha so funny la.. he was walking behind us at 1st den suddenly he over take us.. saw him walked very fast den suddenly he got a "jump"(looks like he tripped over the step) so i don bother much.. but den after a few step, he start to " dance" la omg tt so funny look at it behind from far.. den he started to do "exercise" haha and run bk home.. haha went tell them to look at him den they don believe.. lucky got joanna.. she oso saw everything den wc catch the last few actions.. hah and he started acting wad tt uncle had did.. wa piang so funny la.. all of us laughed for veri long.. from jumbo there to condo there. oman that was how long ago tt i have such a fun time... funny until i cant walk.. stop at the middleof the road haha good day for ytd...

thinkin of you....

2008-10-11T01:33:00.002+08:00

Step 2 failed now repeating it again.. I'm sure I will get it this time round now.. 1 month to prepared for it... haha

UTs all goin buang again liao.. not goin to hope for As but hoping for a pass D will do...
But for Daily Grade an A is going to be a norm for water based module.. land based will be quite Dangerous.. and EE is just another slient killer... Faci is pushing all of us real hard... where i find it quite challenging however, it's just so hard to meet her requirement. the process for mi to get thru is real hard. Wont get to noe exactly wad to do wad to search on.. nth will come out from here... presentation time the more infor i have the more worry i got.. the lesser infor i have the better i do for my presentation.. questioning part will be a difficult task assign to mi.. coz i don noe wad to ask at all times.. this will be den my hard time where my grading will have to base on it mostly...

hiaz... lesosn lesson lesson... everything lesson..

my life is jus so boring den having lesson.. my fren?? i donoe!!! sleepin le...

i think if i die oso no one will care abt mi other than my family

EE

2008-10-10T11:15:00.002+08:00

WAD A LESSON TODAE...

Kill cells again.. white hair coming out..

Biofuel..hiaz. later got ut again.. 3rd UT for this week... hiaz..

Zhong jiu mei yuan fen

2008-10-09T22:20:00.002+08:00

Hei hei.. blogging again here while doing my RJ, listening to Yes933 again.. ahha everything are going on at the same time.. haha .. bloggin mood was here when I'm listening to FM and FM is playing old songs tt I used to like it very much..

Well todae Pool lesson again haha and it's about lifesaving. and today's performance not tt good wasnt toking much but rather doing the testing out of skills and techniques.. not easy ok.. trapping water again and again and again.. 1 word FUN..
for sure todae is another day tt i leanrt some thingnew in the pool, where it gets mi going on.. Now i don have the mood to skip school liao.. once skipped sch mean missing out the fun in the pool or ALC or indoor Rock wall...

out track abit from lesson.. felt like i had saw him walkin pass the lawn but den nv had spec wif mi so nt veri sure... but jus the feeling was so strong.. den while eatin was loking out whether will he appear..(no of cus) so went on doing research everything bleah bleah bleah after bathing.. den coz lydia wanna borrow lappy so we went down to IThelp desk to check out den went buy waffle eat... WHO noes... on the way to lift, I SAW HIM, YES IS HIM.. wanted to call him, i even stretch out my hand wanting to wave to him.. but he nv see mi so i pull back my hand.. malu thing was that he nv saw mi but his fren beside mi saw mi and stare at mi for tt few secs.. so malu for mi to pul back my hand so i pretented to "scratch" my hair.. sian SAW HIM BUT NO COURAGE TO CALL HIM.. WAD HAPPEN TO MI I DON EVEN DARE TO CAL MY FREN JUS TO SAY HI... SHIT IT MAN.. hiaz..

ytd.. nth much shld go ssdc bt nv go again.. hui don wan go out, leen met wc go bugis liao.. was abit sad la i off dae wan go out no fren where free to accompany mi.. den leen called jio mi go wif them den i don wan coz they all meet liao where else i haven even bath wadever wait for mi will need 1hour long.. but den agreed to meet them de fated.. it started raining Heavily.. half way bathing, mum called to go buy thing wanna reject oso aiya ok la go wif her.. nan de can go out wif her.. fren can meet other daes anyway they oso last min jio so i reject my fren... went meet up wif mum and spent almost $100..sian.. heart pain.. no choice la.. mus spend de..
other than that i was sleeping all day long..

tuesday- abseiling.. haha nv get to try descend but ascend.. allan lesson was always a veri good leson for mi... den sudden thot of ascending when doing abseiling lvl 2.. hiaz shld have completed it.. coz really can help wif my lesson.. however wad done is been done.. no point regretting and cannot regret...

I love my phone

2008-10-07T01:01:00.000+08:00

I'm just so lucky to have this phone wif me now haha guess wad i writing post thru my phone:-) and i'm lying down on my bed now haha posting without using lappy haha
jus went faey's hse For hari raya Celebration haha same one year nv meet her alr haha have alot of crap wif xiong n the rest:-)
alrite i going sleep le tml land based mod doing abseiling haha wonderful... nitez guys

East Coast Park.

2008-10-04T22:47:00.003+08:00

DON WISH TO UPDATE ABT WHAT HAPPENED TO MY LIFE IN THE PAST FEW DAYS.. only tt dae (thurs) I had my lesson in the pool.. and (tues) at indoor rock wall. so cool man.. rock wall not a big pro for mi rather i was jus not cofident enough. always have been like this... pool was rather a normal oone although at 1st gettin into pool was excited for it but in the end.. i was rather hmm u all go try den tell mi la nv try out much thing.

spent $50 on doctor.. wa piang sey. slp whole day...

Today woke up late and den took cab down to aljunied to meet sc den she was oso late.. but while nvm den took cab down to ECP E2.. the place where boss asked mi to help him out tt place.. exactly the same place same pit.. from 730am was under the sun unitl 4 plus 5.. can imaging!!! now i was red and hot... BURNT!

tml sundae rest better rest if not ar i realy will die of the cough i had now..

TODAE I MET SOME NEW FRENS AGAIN AND THEY ARE REAL GOOD AS IN THEIR CHARACTER.. POTENTIAL PPL...

FINA 10km Swimming Marathon.

2008-10-01T02:09:00.003+08:00

OMAN this song tt now played on Yes 933.. let mi thot of mani emo thing i went in past few yrs bk...

things tt is stupid.. but nv regret... al those things were things tt made mi zhang da de..

before listening to the song.. i got this thot...

Does my frens really cares abt mi???
Are some of them taking mi for granted??
Why when I need them they are not wif mi and I'm always alone... (i really hate to be alone)
Why Why??
M i treatin all my fren badly...
I really don understand myself now le.. y i cant be like in the past able to remain happy at all times and not like now..

I really hate time tt i will be alone... I hate it when in the past we can be veri gd to each other.. but as time pass by we are so close yet so far.. like wad zhe wei had said tt day when we met up.. coz u say wan meet mah so i ask u all lor if not i will be sleeping.. i noe it's tiring for him now coz NS.. but i still felt sad.. and i realised.. everytime when we meet up is like always i the one who ask.. the rest will not ask mi out... the rest will not like eh we long time nv meet up le wan meet up??

I jus so hate it... i'm tired of it.. i wanna a rest, frens if u need mi den u find mi ya.. if not i donoe la hor.. even if u got pro u oso won find mi de.. who will exactly look for mi...

lazy and don wan continue le.. bye la nitez

NO SWEET DREAMS todae... hate it...

TGIF again...

2008-09-26T15:03:00.002+08:00

hahah todae is FRIDAE again.. few more days 2 pay day... but den it makes no different for mi even got the pay.. all my pay will den jus gone within 1 dae or jus a few hours.. returning hong for booking fees, mooncakes, and one more thing which i forgot le.. this will den cost $100.
bank saving, transport fee - another $100
food - ???
returning alvin, leen,hui -$100
booking for FTT- $10
(haben return my saving account -$280)
how much would i left for myself??? pay oso won get so much la!!!

thurs - sch again todae team pathetic only jazlynn and i turn up.. in the end aha merge team wif sophia again.. finally woot woot... den this day have come e both not working.. haha for so long we haben been so fated tgt... she work i off, i work she off. ytd dam malu sia while waiting for 112... took out my phone check who missed call mi.. called it bk, it's penny black! wth.. sianzzz... they really called mi up to hr department... den while i trying to ask them who called, my throat donoe wad happened.. I started coughin & coughing & coughin.. couldnt even say anything out.. even if can is like veri veri veri soft and 1sentence are broken down to mani mani pieces... den cough until almost vommit la.. my face like all turm red lor... ppl at the bus stop were all lookin at mi.. oman..

den went ah ma hse drink water hahah.. lucky is jus nearby.. if not i think i will jus vommit out in the middle of the road...

wednesday- nth much slp the whole day woke up at 2 haha cool man.. den watch tv, slack.. no need worry abt pp haha coz tuesday submitted alr so nth much to do.. and den is accepted... woot.. went work again same same.. nth much liao

Life is so boring.. no life .. where is my colour??

Singapore International Master Swimming.

2008-09-24T00:36:00.005+08:00

Some updates.. haha as wad u see.. my weekend was busy over wif SIMS ...
Friday- nv go sch.. coz needa do PP den afternoon went cake session... nth much oso.. den got to noe monday got follow up too bad cannot make it canot pon allan class.. nv work coz family chalet... played bowling over at Downtown(such a long time nv play le)

<1st>bkgrd of all of us at FP station.. <2nd> new frens wif all our stop watches..

<^^ my 2 new frens damn tired
took a rest while having break>

Desmond after the whole event as a ji nian>

Sat - Due to stayin over at chalet, I woke up early the morning 530 to prepare so to catch the earliest bus to kovan and den Farrer Park for this event.. Meeting Soo Chian at 7am but den I tell her i will be late for awhile while i was still waitin for 81 at Pasir ris.. Den she replied she oso will be late, she jus woke up.. den she msged mi she will reach FP at abt 830am.. nb i was like fk off man...so dam lat.. we are suppose to gather at 730 de la.. even i late oso late 715 for her meeting time.. she dam late for the event la... den i so good/stupid waited for her at Little India station for 1HOUR fk sia.. I was like dam angry la.. nb.. den i was like wth y i wait for her.. my puntuality for myslef was lik strike off alr lor.. meet her she still dare to tell mi she went running ytd for her marathon.. wtf la.. u noe tml u got event tt need report so early u still went running..
if she was my gd best fren. nm I don give face de lor... hiaz.. den went report kena say by David i was dam ps la.. LATE FOR 1 HOUR tt long.. JUS COZ SHE OVERSLEPT.. and she don think of taking cab down de lor... hiaz wadever la coz late so kena tio so call sai kai.. help ppl wif their mextra manual stop watch.. den report to chief timer everytime when a heat was over.. but coz of it i kena lane 5 haha busy lane haha al fast swimmer.. got to spot Mark Zee.. rather gd la..

Sundae same thing taking down timing for swimmer.. saw the para' swimmer there.. she dam cool la.. swimming so fast although she was disable... den there was an 78 years old man took part too and swim for quite a no of heats... and one old lady power sia swam butterfly.. at 1st everybody does not bother much.. but when she was in the pool, everyone was like power SIA... Butterfly leh... so tt's all for weekends...

monday- did pp again goin finish up asap... but nv got to do so.. haha nv went foloow up lesson coz pp haben finish cannot go... hahaha.. sher called i oso nv answered.. don wan get disturbed by surrounding... went work at abt 6 plus have dinner 1st den go in..

aiya when mentioned abt work I relly jus feel sick and tired... I find it that its my problem of handling ppl here.. but well lucky got vic wif mi..

Tue - went interview, but don feel like working there le... sudden think tt ICe3 is better in some forms of ways... after interviewed went find leen for dinner.. hiaz.. den waited for her to off work haha den go home tgt.. sat at coffeee bean while waiting for time to pass i finish my pp.. that was such a great place.. got so much ling gan there.. when blusting music... den still can on9. so i submitted hope it was been accept... all do sui sui liao.. pray hard ar...

tired wana slp liao but be4 tt i watching show 1st so tml will den update more on todae happening...

Wed OFF DAY AGAIN .. Fri, sat,sun, Mon all no sch ahahah....

disappointed

2008-09-18T10:11:00.006+08:00

updates... ytd so called lucky 2 of my teammates wasnt here so at 1st shld team will sophia and hakim, coz of them got to separate into different team.. well nvm rather den teaming wif the 2 frens haha.. den went team wif jazlyn haha she super high todae la.. donoe how come so high out of a sudden...

presentation: wasnt that well as compare to Day 2 when I was given Picz to explain it to class abt global warming & green house effect... ya 1srt time i saw all team have the same slides la haha.. ytd was like OMG la i was so so so scared abt my presentation. when presenting i was like pause and pause and pause, not clear enough, not convincing enough, not confident enough.. well kena question le la. and worst til i canot explain it out clearly to the rest la.. but I can explain it to my teammates and was like having small meeting in front... hiaz too much infor for mi will only make mi worst, make mi feel like i do not have enough infor to support, on other hand, it also make mi feels that I got alot to say but den i cannot refer to my com...

ok time's goin be up 730 I startin my work... goin to appear off9 the whole dae.. by 1 i have to finish.. 2 got to go for course..
well slp early coz got to wake up early todae which is now.. hence I posting it be4 i start my work todae... this post shld be done ytd.. but donnoe y how come ytd cannot post up to window, cannot even auto ave while typing... hiaz shit com i have...

Out to the swamp..

2008-09-18T10:11:00.002+08:00

haha yes as wad my title for this post meant.. My lesson todae was out to swamp to take a look n experience walking under the hot SUN. Howeer, it was quite a nice walk coz when entering the "forest" it gets cooler.. the trees are there to blk the sun (providing shelter for us). 1st lesson learnt that tropical rainforest help to keep the temperature cool.. and this is wad i had experience todae. Although i can feel it while walking at bukit timah hil, walking along the ubin road to campsite, I wasnt thinking abt why the temp' will sudden be cool. But today, it's a total different experience for mi... Perhaps this is wad the school name this module as " Enviromental Education". Yes, it's exactly wad i doing now... something to do wif geography where we had done it in sec sch.. again over here is more of deep into it.. Once again.. i found my dip more and more interesting... Land-based, water-based n Evironmental based. For sure with a good class... (got 2 classes this sem, alone wif no one from e54H)

reach home abt 145 goin 2.. was working den met cheng and eve for ice cream... haha den help abit with closing tgt wif rosline, jos, jason.. den went bk.. wa piang it's a total big round that uncle had drove out from circle to AMK.. next time shld tell him to get out from huddering rd. Noe what from now on Ice Cubers who workin til closing will be home even later den normal.. pity suresh man last man to drop off..sleep at 3 plus last nite woke up at 6 plus... was like dammm tired la.. force myself to wake up come school.. again one look i thot again ar no one in class! den saw sophia in class alr haha she oso dam early todae.. den i'm the 2nd to reach.. den the faci.. haha

shit com la needa faster go acer or somewhere to fix my com.. the on button is goin spoilt soon enough.. so hard to press to on my com... mus spent like 5 mins to press press press den can on....

so i got to think of how am i goin to spend my $$ this month.. mus earn more more more....

Finally he spoke up.

2008-09-17T01:03:00.003+08:00

Todae saw an email.. really make all of us laughed when reading haha

Hi all,

.........and pls do make thing clear before carrying thing out for punishing.lastly,this thing have nothing to solve.it beyond them not us. thank you for your sharing with me.i hope u understand office hours mean office hours.off duty mean is on the person way of thinking

regards,CI wee chuansgs npcc

haha tis is a small "funny" case that happened jus a few hours ago... haha decided to post it up haha finally he spoke up

todae class only got 7 ppl.. haha patheric .. while found some useful resources but coz of the doubting of myself again. haiz but oso when i tell them they oso nv care much bah i should say...

this few days in class so tired, no matter i sleep early or late the previous nite, still so tired... hiaz.. broke broke broke.. faster end of month....

watching all the show again...

2008-09-14T16:58:00.003+08:00

haha well todae nothing much jus staying at home watching al the show tt i used to miss.. although the show i have watched be4 but now again when watching will still have the urge to continue watching on9...on9 i found two show tt i used to watch and were my Favourite show.. haha Flame of recca, Tomato..

todae is really a relax dae for mi.. for so long i haven been enjoying my sundae.. it's like i have gone bk to past yrs resting at home slackin... hahah...

updates:
fridae- was really a veri tired day.. ICE3 was so busy than be4.. normal fridae wasnt use to be tt busy de.. but last fri was was was really busy.. veri long don have full hse le.. hahaha. and i met someone.. he came to have ice cream.. the moment he stepped in i was like. omg.. sher beside standing makin fun of mi again .. haha while.. saw him everything was in the mess... reached home used com awhile den doze off in front the com... pro rite.. mum woke mi up like abt goin 4am

sat.. wOKE UP AT AROUND 2PM again mum the 1 who woke mi up.. haha den watch my show again den went work. not tt busy but oso quite tired.. the rest is updated on the previous blog ytd...

Done!!

2008-09-14T03:52:00.002+08:00

7 mins more to 4am.. i'm suprised that i stayed up til so late to do my blogskin..
did it twice sia.. 1st time forgot to save the coding.. 2nd time scared liao however it's done...
i quite like this skin.. found this in abt 1o mins time.. saw this skin and tt's it.. not like in the past i search again and again den decided.. this was like once i saw it.. it's the one...

song nv change will not change til i found a song i like more den this or my emo changes...

todae lantern festival.. goin play wif candles again haha... hopefully i found some partner wif mi.. as i missed ytd wif my younger cousins.. hiaz.. if not sure veri fun de.

alrite my eyes is going soon again... nitez pplz

update again later on..

WAd sch dae... but wanna say TGIF

2008-09-12T15:38:00.002+08:00

TGIF!!! if not i think i will kill myself... really no motivation to come sch.. to do work... my fren here is still tokin and singin songs in class.. haha during 2nd break and now again end of class haha.. tt's her bah...

tml sat.. rest in the morning, den work again.. sun.. got program for Lantern festival... haha donnoe wanna meet wei out on sundae... anot haha
so good la .

ok gtg.. blog again tonite....

TGIF

Morning..

2008-09-12T08:28:00.002+08:00

I was early todae for sch.. haha 10 mins earlier.. todae hopefully can end class earlier, den i can go home sleep awhile before goin for my work later.. ytd was watching the last 4 eps of ming zhong until 2plus den when bed.

so todae goin to be another dae in sch.. and I couldnt go for training (sec 2 having promotion test) hiaz mentioning abt sec 2... i wonder how long wc and i going let chu see and sasibila pass their test... both of them are new cadets so they noe not much drills, den worst still 1 of them don often come for training... hiaz whatever it is shall see how todae sher take the test bah..
Wc & mi got sch won be able to go (SIANZ)

oya i'm broke seriously broke...

who can help mi..........before i visit the bank.. haha

My show is back....

2008-09-12T00:17:00.002+08:00

Hahah brought the CD back home to watch haha this is the 2nd taiwan TV drama series.. 1st is liu xing hua yuan.. now is ming zhong zhu ding wo ai ni... haha now watchin the last 2 eps... another show ending soon...

well todae in class got a gd news from Cheng.. his fren workplace hiring waitress haha. 7.5/per hour.. dam good rite... but is at a pub la.. den sound god but don sound good for other ppl rite.. but to mi, i'm fine wif it de.. as long as i got a job for mi... den i can go for my courses... haha
so i think i will fine a day go down interview... as for ice3 i think i will still stay there help out wif shereen.. den i oso got abit bu sher de leave over there for 1 yr le.. den within one yr i got this position i have now, i'm happy enough le.. asst supvisor is nth so wad.. but this is wad i earned for myself the best thing tt i got for myself.. someone who recognise mi, my ablilty....

see how it goes bah... life ned to be change...

again ppl will forget abt mi so easily... such a failure...

My Long Lost "A"

2008-09-11T20:28:00.003+08:00

Thank Ai Chin for the 1st "A" in my yr 2 and this is only the 1st lesson.. i promised tt i will strive my very best for both my Land & water based modules... haha both are the best faci for now... they really motivates mi alot... I'm so heng to have them as my faci...

HATE!!!

2008-09-11T01:29:00.002+08:00

please don promise me anything.. i hate ppl to promise mi in the end they break the promise.

i'm jus sorry to all.. nowadays i think i really need ur attention.. I cannot be alone myself...My emotion/feeling now is real bad...stupid hand is numb now while typin the blog...

i donoe myself.. really... wad is goin on in my life.. who is goin to appear in my life next..

fren if i sudden tok to u/ call u mean i really need someone to tok to.. although we have nth to tok abt.. but pls help mi.. i think the only ppl tt no need think of wad to tok wif mi will be hui..

i cant sleep now... jus feel like crying now... who will really bother abt mi..
who will be the one when they are free they will call mi up jus to ask mi out for a day..
who will be there for mi seriously...

who m i thinking of...
wad m i thinking of...
why m i thinking of...

Home

2008-09-10T16:47:00.002+08:00

why i post a blank post ytd... veri simple i wrote a post in class during lesson ytd abt weekend and on certain people.. but donnoe how come/ wad i did the post was clear and became blank.. lazy to write all over again so let it be a invisible post for ytd bah

sat - went tree climbing, lost on the way when goin for course in the morning.
sun - sister photo taking day... haha
- went buy swensen and 1 more (brand forget wad liao) mooncake for my family, spent nearly$100 for it (paid my aunt 1st)

mondae -lesson wif allan lee...
tuesdae - lesson wif Ai Chin...
- went helped ICE3 as boss fired one full timer

both were my faci before haha so qiao lor haha

i got to go work le haha gonna late soon...

i clear part of my mind le... jus some advise bah... if u goin to answer mi up to you den keep tt to urself bah...

Tan Ai Chin

2008-09-09T11:38:00.003+08:00

Sian of it...

2008-09-09T00:14:00.007+08:00

To all,

Can don waste time on doing those small things anot? All of u having exam real soon and it's all just round the corner, yet u guys are spending time over at the small matters.. hiaz den why mus we step in to settle these small little things leh... You all very free rite nothing to do den wan mi give u something to do bo? YaYaYa all u noe is take a cig' out and smoke den there it goes ur trouble rite... Does authority that important in ur life?? Have u all asked yourself truthfully do u understand single one of us here?? Blog is just a place where people write what they feel, why mus bother over it?? will u die if u don chap? why mus everything come to us when it happens half way thru and we got to clear the shit mess you all have gone?
Can't we jus have one day/ one matter, u coming to us tellin us this is wad u have done and solve the problem.

I really going to let go off everything there, however I still have the passion over here. Well, it's time for me to re-prioritise my work in my life. Ice3 alr settle that I wanna leave yet boss still give mi things to do. Npcc cannot bring mi to somewhere.. this have been wif mi for 1 yr plus.. many people have advise mi to prioritise my stuff since last year when i started RP life and wanthing to leave RP time, there were quite a few facis told mi this the same thing.. yet i choose not to put Np as the last position.. now it's looks more likely that I will placed it at the last place alr... I was sometime envy on sch tt have good cadets and TOs... not much problems and nv bother abt UOBA! Does gold really going to make things work? I wanna sleep le tak boleh tahan alr... update tml on tonites matter...

Allan Lee

2008-09-08T15:06:00.002+08:00

well todae is Monday for sure, Allan Lee lesson today.. haha quite good to have him as my faci again.. use to his style le so not much problem.. team was wif bobby again (todae is the 3 times..thur,fri n today.) Todae lesson was lik okok nia... abt what shld be brought/pack for trekking up a moutain? I was still the same not speaking up much alone in my own world...

Again tt unknown person is bk to my phone after 2 days of mi avioding him... really scared of him la.. every msg tt comes in will really scared mi off.. dam it la. who can help mi!!! while ppl can jus tell mi not ot reply him, but den he kep msging me.. bloodly hell sia.. fren can be fren but don ask too much from mi if u don noe mi well... there are certain things can happen but den there are oso things that will nv happen... help ar help ar...

tml will be tuesday, pp submittion date due and oso my ah pa, the b' wei... ah wei, zhe wei going to book in for NS le omg i can't believe sia... he was arrange to HTA POLICE FORCE.. see see he got in to police force, the one tt i wanna get in to be4 de... haha next time can go HTA visit him if goin for np actitivties. i wonder how will he look like wif his botak head out when he book out haha. and oso the life inside for him, he's too used to be staying at home facing the com playing ms.. spending money on ms.. while tml onwards his life has changed... hope he become more man and mature enough bah... ALL THE BEST for his 2 yrs NS life..

well as i look back in my life, those fren, brothers, darling around mi are all goin to engage them for the nation soon enough... alvin seah and jian xiong are alr in, lennon like in alr oso if not he oso goin report soon enough. See See all my male frens are getting in to NS haha..

Started..

2008-09-04T12:45:00.004+08:00

Hiaz.. school started le.. now i'm in my new class E54M.. some of them have seen them be4 but donoe them... den quite alot of people in this class used to be same class in sem 1 or rather yr 1..
hiaz faci was great, to mi she's quite motivative haha 1st day no ppt hahah cool sia.. 1 lesson we were alr get ourselves outside classroom to the park again, jus for a while nia..

oya something really fated.. i same class wif the person i don quite like to work wif... one is still okay only meet her for one lesson, another one is Ain. Last sem same class for AE den was like cannot tahan, who noes this sem i same class wif her for all 3 days la.. OMG TMD.. last sem i tok too many bad things abt her liao... jus like yr 1 alicia, don quite like to work wif her, the more i don like the more i aviod, the more i get to team wif her in a week. And now is SAME CLASS AS AID FOR 3 DAYS.. omg i wonder how m i goin to survive this sem.. i think only way is to accept her and not think too much le bah... nothing can be done since it's the fact alr den cannot treat her as invisible... haha

was msging to a unknown guy in class now hahaha but i think i noe him jus couldnt remember who is he or have i met him be4.. out o a sudden he msg mi asking mi who m i haha... and den he told mi that i called him past few days.. (not sure did i really calll) haha anyway by chance got to noe him haha interesting man...

ok end class le now goin home sleep and do my pp, go swimming hope it won rain again...

Last day of holiday..

2008-09-04T00:06:00.003+08:00

ytd was the last day of holiday.. i hope wif the new sem coming up can really change my mind of thinking.. i really wanna continue engage myself in outdoor stuffs.. but now my mind jus drag mi off for other thing.. I reallly hate myself having this kind of feeling/thinking, can say i'm not sure of wad i wan, can oso say that I'm sure of wad i wan. but i cannot find my aim and goal in my heart now.. It's not clear, i cannt see it clearly. trying to hold on to it but it slipped off.. when i took a step forward, it took 2 step backward...

today ping's big day... congratulation to you... grandma and mum were so happy.. now next is mei le den mi... and all of us will by den stepped into the society le.. sunday will be our biggest family day again. hopefuly all of us can be there..

later got sch i wonder how my class will be lucky got sophia, hakim, lam and lydia... ok i don wish to say anything le goin sleep liao the more i say i think the more i feel sad, frustrated, and helpless....